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In the upper reaches of the Zagros Mountains, the air changed. The high altitude opened it, cleared it of the dust of the valleys, and made it sing a little in the lungs; low atmospheric pressure. It was a shift I recognized. We had been driving for hours, winding north along a wide dry basin between high peaks; then we turned west. Now the car, an old Peugot, struggled upward along switch-backs cut into the mountainside, past intersecting layers of rock laid down over geological ages. <\/p>\n
For a moment I was reminded intensely of home. It had been almost a year since I had been back to Boulder, in the foothills of the Colorado Rockies. The snug valley where I had gone to high school, learned to drive; where my parents and sister still lived, could be seen as a tidy whole from this height in cliffs much like these. Looking down into the plain below, I felt as though I was seeing double, and that an hour\u2019s hike along the switch-backs would bring me to my own doorstep. <\/p>\n
At the time, it was a sensation that seemed a little perverse. I had just flown into Iran from Egypt\u2014this journey had begun thousands of miles from my own country. That a mountain and a change in the air in Iran should make me think of home in the spring of 2004; the spring of the War on Terror, the Clash of Civilizations, the Jihad, the things that had made my quiet life almost unlivable, must be sheer perversity. I thought so then. I didn\u2019t yet realize that the Zagros Mountains had no name when they were forced out of the ground millions of years ago, and neither did the Rockies; that the call of earth to earth might be something more real than the human divisions of Iran and America. I had faith, then; it was in the mountains that I first thought of divinity, and these mountains reminded me of that sensation. But I didn\u2019t yet have faith in faith\u2014I didn\u2019t trust the connections I felt between mountains or memories, and if I had been a little more ambivalent, I could have allowed the Zagros to be foreign, and the memory to be coincidence. <\/p>\n
Fortunately, I didn\u2019t.<\/p>\n
Ahmad, my guide-plus-chaperone, pointed west over the receding peaks.<\/p>\n
\u201cIf you keep driving that way, you would get to Iraq,\u201d he said. He was a Shirazi man with silver hair and laugh-lines. Before the revolution he flew planes for the Shah, whom he had hated, but not as much as he now hated the mullahs. During one of our conversations on the road from Shiraz to Isfahan, he told me he used to fast during Ramadan and pray with some regularity. The Islamic regime had so deformed his religion in his eyes that he stopped. Thinking I would judge him for this lapse lest he provide a rationale (I was an American and a Sunni, and therefore unpredictable) he told me he didn\u2019t need to fast; fasting was meant to remind one of the hunger of the poor, and he helped the poor in other ways. <\/p>\n
\u201cThen why do the poor fast?\u201d I asked him. The Ramadan fast was required of all Muslims, not just the wealthy. He looked at me out of the corner of his eye; evidently I was an American Sunni who discussed theology. Among the middle classes, theology had gone out of fashion in Iran. But I had just come from Egypt, where the reverse was true. Ahmad left the question floating in the air.<\/p>\n
\u201cIraq?\u201d I climbed on a rock near the edge of the promontory where we were standing, having parked the car on the shoulder of the road. My Nikes stuck out from under the hem of my black robe. I had overdressed. In Khatami\u2019s Tehran, chadors and manteaux had been replaced by short, tight house-coats and scarves that were barely larger than handkerchiefs. Knowing only that Iran was under a religious dictatorship, and Egypt was under a military one, I had dressed as conservatively as possible. I didn\u2019t realize that whatever the political reality, Egypt was far more socially conservative than Iran. The reasons for this would only become clear to me later: when a dictatorship claims absolute authority over an idea\u2014in the case of Iran, Islam, in the case of Egypt, a ham-fisted brand of socialism\u2014frustrated citizens will run to the opposite ideological extreme. The Islamic Republic was secularizing Iran; in Egypt the short-robed fundamentalists multiplied and multiplied. <\/p>\n
\u201cYes, Iraq. I think at night further south-west you could maybe see the bombs falling. But far away; first the plain of Karbala, then Baghdad.\u201d Ahmad came to stand next to my rock, and pointed northwest. \u201cKarbala is where Imam Husayn is buried.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWe have his head,\u201d I said, thinking of the fasting argument. \u201cIn Cairo. There\u2019s a square named after him where the shrine is.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat?\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cHis head,\u201d I repeated, wondering whether I should put an honorific before \u2018his\u2019; Husayn was a grandson of the Prophet and beloved by all Muslims, but particularly revered by Shi\u2019ites. I didn\u2019t want to commit a faux pas. No matter what Ahmad thought about fasting. I put one hand to my back; the infection in my kidneys had manifested itself as a dull spreading pain there, and a touch of fever. Living in an industrial neighborhood in Cairo, not a clean city to begin with, I had developed an unfortunate apathy toward my health.<\/p>\n
\u201cThis is the first time I hear this about Imam Husayn,\u201d muttered Ahmad, and broke out into a laugh.<\/p>\n
\u201cIt\u2019s true,\u201d I said, \u201cThe Fatimids brought him with them. At least, that\u2019s what the ulema tell us; maybe it\u2019s all a lie and the shrine is empty.\u201d A light wind ran down the channel of the valley below. I took a breath and held it for a moment, then let it out in a sigh. Ahmad smiled a little. <\/p>\n
\u201cThank you,\u201d I said, \u201cIt\u2019s beautiful up here.\u201d<\/p>\n
Later in the car, Ahmad told me \u201cI think you are becoming a little bit Arab.\u201d He said so gently, but this is not a compliment in Persia. On some level, I agreed with him\u2014I was so submerged in Cairo, so cut off from America, that something was bound to change. Yet I still felt like myself. I was disturbed because I had been told I should be disturbed; that the Arab way of doing things, being opposed to American way of doing things, represented the betrayal of an American self. But I had discovered that I was not my habits. I was not the way I dressed or the things I did and didn\u2019t say. If I were all these things, then standing on that rock and looking west, I should have been someone else. <\/p>\n
But I remained.<\/p>\n
When the term \u2018Clash of Civilizations\u2019 was coined, it was a myth; the interdependence of world cultures lay on the surface, supported by trade and the travel of ideas, the borrowing of words from language to language. But like so many ugly ideas, the clash becomes a little more real every time someone says the word. Today, it is a theory supported not only in the West, where it was invented, but also in the Muslim world, where plenty of people see Islam as irrevocably in conflict with western values. When threatened, both Muslims and Westerners tend to toe their respective party lines, defending monolithic ideals that only exist as tools of opposition; ideals that crumble as soon as the opposing party has turned its back. The truth emerges. It is not through politics that we will be delivered from this conflict. It is not through pundits and analysts and experts. The war between \u2018Islam and the West\u2019 is a human conflict, in which human experience is the only reliable guide. We are all standing on the mountaintop, and we must learn to look out at the world not through the medium of self-appointed authorities, but with our own eyes. <\/p>\n
Prologue excerpted from \u201cThe Butterfly Mosque,\u201d by G. Willow Wilson. \u00a9 Copyright 2010. Reprinted by permission.<\/i><\/p>\n
G. Willow Wilson<\/a> is an American author and essayist who divides her time between Egypt and the US. Her articles about modern religion and the Middle East have appeared in publications including the Atlantic Monthly<\/i>, the New York Times Magazine<\/i> and the Canada National Post<\/i>. Her new memoir The Butterfly Mosque<\/a> is published by Atlantic Monthly.<\/i><\/p>\n<\/body><\/html>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" In this excerpt from her new book, The Butterfly Mosque<\/i>, American author and graphic novelist G. Willow Wilson begins to describe her experiences arriving in Egypt and her impending immersion into the Muslim world.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[21],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3873","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-newsmakers"],"yoast_head":"\n