Buddhism<\/a>.<\/span> I return to the bliss of my last long retreat, far, far too long ago, to the many good conversations with friends and students and teachers, and to the meditation cushion.<\/p>\nI also see my struggles: How do I give Ana what she needs from 7000 miles away? How do I relax when she tells me there is nothing to do<\/span>? What (the hell) should I do with my summer? Is this 2nd MA just an ego trip, pulling me away from my bliss? Should I give it up and turn my mind fully toward London, toward that Ph.D., and toward my deepening my practice? Should I kick back, relax, be rowdy, and drink late the boys?<\/p>\nSo much of me says, \u201cdrop the MA, drop (most, if not all, of) the late nights. Your bliss is Buddhism, you need<\/span> to practice for anything you\u2019ve learned to sink in. You need this to help people. As much as the philosophy might help, it\u2019s not connected to your heart any more. Even though your head can do it \u2013 you can finish all of this work \u2013 your heart will wither and London will become more a burden on a weary heart than a gateway to one\u2019s bliss.\u201d<\/p>\nAnd yet, there is that little fellow on my other shoulder. He urges me to do it all and have it all, \u201cparty at night, work in the morning, write, exercise, take a hike, and party again!\u201d And who can argue with that?<\/p><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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