It\u2019s an interesting juxtaposition though: between my view of myself in Bristol and that of myself in Missoula. There I accepted and enjoyed the position of an outsider committed to my studies; here I feel a pull toward fitting in to social cliques and occasional disappointment when I see that I\u2019m not in<\/i> a given group. There\u2019s a bit of social insecurity here that didn\u2019t come up for me in Bristol, and I think it\u2019s mostly environmental (i.e. my surroundings are pressuring me to fit in<\/i>, whereas in Bristol there was no such pressure).<\/p>\n
But, I\u2019m too busy to ruminate further, so for now I\u2019ll just sit with and watch any perceived pressures or feelings of disappointment; and watch them dissolve into constituent parts, past fears, unnecessary hopes\u2026 eventually returning to \u2018just breathing\u2019 and the openness which blissfully accompanies it.<\/p>\n
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