With all this hype surrounding the Benedict Option, I decided to find out more about St. Benedict’s actual choice to start living a monastic life in a cave at Subiaco.
Mind you, I’m already somewhat familiar with Benedictinism: I work at a high school run by Benedictine monks. Having spent time with the monks at prayer and reading The Rule, I feel like I’ve gotten a sense of what Benedict was really about. Nevertheless, I was curious to know out more about the man myself.
As I hiked up the mountain to “il Sacro Specco,” I prayed for my students, coworkers, and the monks who run our school. I asked that we find ourselves more united to God and to each other over the course of the next school year.
When I reached the top, I was surprised by the beauty of the monastery (which was built into the mountain) and the landscape. After snapping a few pictures and offering some more prayers, I started making my way back down.
Then it occured to me…there must not have been much to do up here being isolated in this mountain. I guess Benedict’s motto was really accurate then–ora et labora, work and prayer. Other than that, there’s nothing else he could have really done.
All he did was attend to his daily routine of praying and working in on a mountaintop. How did he end up initiating a cultural and spiritual revolution that continues to impact the world 1500 years later? My being employed at a Benedictine school and the recent hype around the Benedict Option made this question even more pressing for me.
Benedict must not have intended to start such a revolution…most revolutionaries don’t set out to “change the world” by spending hours on end reciting the Psalms and taking care of mundane chores. His “revolutionary attitude” certainly contradicted my mentality when facing the problems in front of me that need to be “revolutionized”–whether it’s the worsening fragmentation of American society or the hardships my students are facing. To me, making a difference in the world or in someone’s life starts with a plan or a project. I have to devise the perfect way to fix the problem in front of me. If I don’t, I feel like a failure.
I often saw this attitude taking form in the way I taught my classes. My desire to help my students find God and make sense of their lives turned into some big plan for the “perfect lesson” in which they would “finally” understand the truth. What ends up happening everytime I come up with a new perfect lesson is that the students get bored, or don’t really understand how what I’m telling them is the “answer to what they need.” There always seems to be this disconnect between what I think they need and what they actually need.
That’s when I realized the main difference between Benedict’s and my revolutionary attitudes. Benedict knew that he didn’t have any answers. He knew that he hadn’t the key to “fixing” the decay of Roman society. Only God had the answers. And only a life devoted to God–through prayer and work, through being attentive to what God has placed in front of him and obeying what was asked of him, would any real “solution” emerge.
My attitude was centered on constructing an answer of my own and imposing it onto the problem. I too readily assume that I am an adequate agent of “change,” that I can presume to know the answers to other people’s (and my own) issues and can act as a savior. In reality, I don’t know what other people need. I can’t save anybody. All I can do is pay attention to them and “obey” the circumstances in front of me, asking God to reveal Himself to me with each of my “yes’s.”As I returned to work, I was faced with a question: what will my students benefit more from? Me trying to “make a difference” in their lives by coming up with the perfect lesson, the perfect solution to their problems, or me obeying reality–paying attention to them and putting more effort into the little details of planning my lessons.
I decided to follow the latter option, knowing it’s the one Benedict would’ve chosen. I hesitated at first, knowing that this option would imply a risk. If I give up my idea of the perfect lesson or solution, I have to abandon myself to the will of Someone other than me…Someone who is mysterious and unpredictable. I was letting go of control…little did I know the freedom I would gain from this risk.
I started to find that my students were becoming more trusting of me and that I was receiving less resistance and frustration from them. The disconnect was being bridged because I started to listen more closely to them and to understand their actual questions and needs. My lessons became more solid as I spent more time fleshing out the details and based them on the concerns my students were communicating to me.
For example, I started my unit on Christology with the first chapter of John’s Gospel in which Jesus asks John and Andrew, “what are you looking for?” My students were fascinated by this question. “No one ever asks us that.” Then I went to move onto the next lesson on the Samaritan Woman at the Well. They were unimpressed by her story, and asked to talk about Jesus meeting John and Andrew. At first I hesitated–spending more time on John 1 wasn’t in my lesson plans. But this is when I realize I had to make a choice. Stick to my plan or obey what was happening with my students.
I decided to take more time looking at the existential questions Jesus asked. They were so enthralled that I decided to base their midterm project on this topic. I was amazed by the work they produced…and found that I ended up learning from them.
I came to the conclusion that my “big ideas,” as exciting as they may seem in the moment, never stand the test of time. Following Benedict’s method of obedience to the little details God placed in front of him was much more effective and satisfying. Perhaps this is why his charism continues to impact the world 1500 years after the fact. His method was rooted in his trust in God, and not in his schemes of “changing the world.”
With all this talk about the Benedict Option that continues to swirl around Christian circles, I strongly recommend we pay closer attention to Benedict’s actual “option.” We don’t all need to go on pilgrimage to Subiaco to understand it. We just need to be willing to learn from his example and have the humility to trust that praying and working is enough…that what He gives us, what he asks us to say “yes” to, even if it seems mundane and miniscule, is enough to change ourselves and those around us.