For the better part of a year, I\u2019ve been working on understanding a book and a doctrine that, shall we admit, are not \u201cbestsellers.\u201d In fact, one of my readers very softly commented:<\/p>\n
\u201cIt was a long and complicated series, and I\u2019m afraid that the truly interested layman \u2018in all the details\u2019 might be hard to find. I found a lot of it very, very interesting, and I certainly had no conception that the Trinity could possibly generate that much insight from either you or your author\/book. I think, however, of ***\u2019s comment; something about simplicity. I do think that academics gets into such \u2018deep stuff\u2019 that the average person tends to respond with \u2018who cares?\u2019 or \u2018what difference does it make?\u2019\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n Perhaps this person was voicing your own thoughts. Nearly eight full months on the history of Trinitarian thought? What difference does it make?<\/p>\n Part of me wants to start all over again, and do a better job so that the wonderful \u201cdifference\u201d is made clearer, both to you and to me. I think of some of the gentle saints I have known and loved in this world, calm, clear-eyed, and faithful souls whose loving, devout relationship to the Lord was uncomplicated, unfettered, and straightforward. Simple rhythms of \u201cplease, Lord,\u201d and \u201cthank you so much, Father,\u201d and \u201chelp me be better,\u201d and \u201cpraise you, Jesus!\u201d Is the Trinity so thorny an issue that it\u2019s inevitably inaccessible to the non-academic sort?<\/p>\n I think if we really understood the Trinity, it would pristinely beautiful to all of us, the ones with the fussy brains and the ones with the pure hearts. The kaleidoscope of Trinitarian angles is, yes, a jumble of images and thoughts, colors and lights, and it seems in constant motion, hard to \u201cread.\u201d And still, it can be beautiful, and wonderful, and, beyond anything, hopeful.<\/p>\n But then I thought again about the question: What difference does it make<\/em>? And I wondered then about what difference it made that we waded through all these things, for the most part in labored silence, me pecking away on the keyboard and you trying to make some sense of my ruminations. What have we been doing? to what end? While Anatolios\u2019s Retrieving Nicaea<\/em> pushed me during the day, it was George Eliot\u2019s Middlemarch<\/em> that tucked me in at night. And there I read this:<\/p>\n \u201c\u2026 the growing good of the world is partly dependent on unhistoric acts; and that things are not so ill with you and me as they might have been, is half owing to the number who lived faithfully a hidden life, and rest in unvisited tombs.\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n Here, then, is the rationale for the smallness of deeds, yours and mine. Our days are full of \u201cunhistoric acts,\u201d and our greatest calling may simply be to \u201clive faithfully a hidden life.\u201d A hidden pondering, shifting colors, catching glimpses, losing vision, gaining vision. And thus the difference it all makes is unmeasurable, modest, clandestine even. \u201cFor your life is hidden with Christ in God\u2026\u201d (Col. 3.3). Wrestle quietly and perhaps even ineffectually with history and theology, ideas and images, and perhaps never really understand, never see the value. Yet still, insofar as it is an act of faithfulness, an act of holy desire, as Augustine would describe it \u2026 it is good. And it is enough.<\/p>\n \u00a0<\/p>\n Photo: PLUM\u2026a Spoo and a Weim<\/em><\/p>\n<\/body><\/html>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" For the better part of a year, I\u2019ve been working on understanding a book and a doctrine that, shall we admit, are not \u201cbestsellers.\u201d In fact, one of my readers very softly commented: \u201cIt was a long and complicated series, and I\u2019m afraid that the truly interested layman \u2018in all the details\u2019 might be hard […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":206,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[101],"tags":[4,120,40,95,93,100],"class_list":["post-464","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-trinitarian-spirituality-a-series","tag-augustine","tag-george-eliot","tag-history","tag-spirituality","tag-trinity","tag-worship"],"yoast_head":"\n