I spot Chad a few minutes later, a dark-eyed waif on the sidewalk. It\u2019s been three weeks he\u2019s been gone, and he\u2019s lost so much weight. Everything about him looks burnt-out, the way refugees on TV look with farms smoking behind them: translucent skin, an uncertain balance something like shellshock. I notice he\u2019s wearing a necklace, one he wasn\u2019t wearing last time. A ring and a small cross.<\/p>\n
I tell the driver, \u201cThat\u2019s him.\u201d<\/p>\n
The bus slows, but the doors don\u2019t open.<\/p>\n
\u201cFive hundred dollar fine!\u201d the driver shouts.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cFive hundred dollar fine for entering or exiting the vehicle at\u2026\u201d (here I have no idea what he says) \u201c\u2026designated stopping point.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cSo he can get on at the stop?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cFive hundred dollar fine!\u201d<\/p>\n
Chad studies me through the plexiglass of the bus\u2019s doors. Perplexed, panicky from lack of sleep, obviously trying not to show it. I do my best to motion him down the road, try to mouth, \u201cwait there.\u201d The yellow and black paint of the stop is at just such an angle I can\u2019t point at it through the doors. I keep pointing as the bus keeps moving. It stops 20 feet away; the doors hiss open.<\/p>\n
\u201cCan he get on here?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDesignated stopping point!\u201d<\/p>\n
Chad reaches the stop a few seconds after the bus. I can\u2019t think of anything to say but, \u201cHey.\u201d<\/p>\n
We collapse into seats next to each other, he with a bag over each shoulder. His lips taste like seawater; his mouth is dry. I later learn that he took a shot, his last shot, in the bathroom at Dulles. This is quite valuable, actually, seeing what he looks like still high, on the tail-end of high \u2014 it\u2019s a look I\u2019ve yet to see on him again.<\/p>\n
\u201cI parked at the wrong gate,\u201d I explain. \u201cWe have to go back around.\u201d<\/p>\n
He seems euphoric to just be able to rest.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n
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