{"id":23402,"date":"2021-03-07T07:00:24","date_gmt":"2021-03-07T11:00:24","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/freelancechristianity\/?p=23402"},"modified":"2021-03-06T18:24:53","modified_gmt":"2021-03-06T22:24:53","slug":"ah-yes-i-remember-it-well-or-do-i","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/freelancechristianity\/ah-yes-i-remember-it-well-or-do-i\/","title":{"rendered":"Ah Yes, I Remember It Well . . . or do I?"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<\/head>

My youngest son, Justin, has a remarkable memory\u2013for, as he puts it, \u201ctotally useless facts.\u201d By the time he was ten or eleven, I had learned never to challenge his memory of a basketball game we attended, of a conversation from months or years earlier, or a movie. Thanks to me and my forcing Justin and his brother Caleb to watch my favorite movies from the time they were very young, Justin knows every line of dialogue from \u201cDead Poets Society\u201d and \u2018The Blues Brothers,\u201d along with appropriate inflections and accents (he\u2019s an excellent mimic). I fancy that I know all the dialogue from those movies as well, but when we laugh our way through a favorite scene, Justin regularly corrects something that I inaccurately quote. I never challenge him on this\u2013I\u2019ve been proven wrong too many times.<\/p>\n

\"\"Michel de Montaigne, whose brilliant essays are the focus of an honors colloquium I am teaching this semester, regularly complains about what a weak and unreliable memory he has. By his own account, he forgets the books he has read, has no memory for dates, and misplaces the momentous events in his life. At times he seems almost proud of his poor memory, and with good reason. Fueled by an insatiable curiosity and with little interest in building a solid philosophical foundation upon which his beliefs can be permanently settled, Montaigne always resisted fixed points, choosing rather to \u201cessay\u201d further and wander more extensively within a world that he found boundlessly fascinating. A stronger memory might have tempted him to rely on past experiences and knowledge; the weakness of his memory removed that temptation.<\/p>\n

Memory is tricky, an often unreliable something out of which, for better or for worse, we construct our past, interpret our present, and envision our future.\u00a0I\u2019ve observed my own memory erode over the years simply because of new technology that made memorization unnecessary. I used to easily hold several dozen ten-digit telephone numbers in my memory, even remembering my childhood home phone numbers and those of my girlfriend when I was in high school. Now, I know my cell number and two office numbers, can remember Jeanne\u2019s cell number if I think for a second, but have no other phone numbers available in my memory files. Why? Because all I need to do is tap my cell phone two or three times and I can find any one of the hundreds of numbers stored in it. The part of my brain that used to do that can now do something else (or atrophy).<\/p>\n

But some things are unforgettable. My memory in my youth was developed both by my piano training and by forced Bible memorization. Although I\u2019ve not made a study of it, I\u2019ll bet that memorizing music and memorizing the written word involve two different parts of the brain, because I was always much better at memorizing Bible verses than passages from Mozart, Bach, or Debussy. Of the Old Testament verses I was required to memorize, the majority of them were from the Psalms, passages that remain some of my favorites from Scripture. Psalm 23, of course, but also Psalm 91 (\u201cHe who dwells in the secret place of the most High\u201d), Psalm 103 (\u201cBless the Lord, O my soul\u201d\u2014a text that is forever set in my memory to the music from\u00a0Godspell<\/em>), Psalm 121 (\u201c I will lift up mine eyes unto the hills\u201d) and many others stayed with me as welcome companions even after I sought to walk away from my heritage in my young adulthood. In class the other day, I enjoyed reciting two or three Psalms to freshmen (it was Old Testament week) \u00a0as some of them followed along in their texts to track the difference between the NRSV and King James translations. Those who were not following along stared at me as if I were some sort of pony-tail-wearing mutant or trained monkey.<\/p>\n

Of all the Psalms from my youth, Psalm 19 was and still remains my favorite.<\/p>\n

The heavens declare the glory of God;<\/strong><\/p>\n

And the firmament showeth His handiwork.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Day unto day uttereth speech,<\/strong><\/p>\n

And night unto night showeth knowledge.<\/strong><\/p>\n

There is no speech nor language<\/strong><\/p>\n

Where their voice is not heard.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Their sound is gone out into all lands,<\/strong><\/p>\n

And their words unto the end of the world.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Even in the stilted and outdated language of the King James Version (I wasn\u2019t sure what a \u201cfirmament\u201d was, nor were \u201cshoweth\u201d or \u201cuttereth\u201d verbs my people used often), I recognized it as beautiful poetry as a mere child. And it was one of the pillars (along with passages from Romans 1 and 10) of my church\u2019s answer to the question \u201cAre those who haven\u2019t heard about Jesus going to hell?\u201d The thought that they would seemed unfair to me, but in Romans Paul insists, as does the writer of Psalm 19, that God\u2019s presence and truth is there for the observing for those who care to pay attention; Paul says that those who do not \u201care without excuse.\u201d<\/p>\n

So, it was disconcerting to find out while on sabbatical some time ago that I had \u201cmisremembered\u201d Psalm 19. My first clue was when Psalm 19 was up to the plate one day during noon prayer (all of the Psalms get a turn at bat during the four-week cycle of the hourly office the Benedictines use). We read, in the Grail translation,<\/p>\n

The heavens declare the glory of God<\/strong><\/p>\n

and the firmament shows forth the work of God\u2019s hands.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Day unto day takes up the story<\/strong><\/p>\n

and night unto night makes known the message.<\/strong><\/p>\n

No speech, no word, no voice is heard<\/strong><\/p>\n

yet their span extends through all the earth,<\/strong><\/p>\n

their words to the utmost bounds of the world.<\/strong><\/p>\n

As usual, reading a Psalm that I memorized in the King James Version in another translation was weird, as if someone had messed with the text of a Christmas carol or something. My curiosity was piqued as I compared \u201cNo speech, no word, no voice is heard\u201d with the \u201cThere is no speech or language where their voice is not heard\u201d of my memory.<\/p>\n

I try not to be a philosopher at noon prayer, but I didn\u2019t have to be a philosopher to realize that these comparative lines had exactly opposite meanings. Either what the heavens and the firmament have to say is heard in all languages or it is not heard in any voice or language at all. Later, I checked my KJV and read \u201cthere is no speech or language; their voice is not heard.\u201d I had misremembered\u2014I had replaced a semicolon with a \u201cwhere.\u201d My memorized \u201cthere is no speech or language where their voice is not heard\u201d had exactly reversed what Psalm 19:3 is saying. And another small piece of my past\u2014this time my favorite Psalm\u2014bites the dust.<\/p>\n

Our core selves are essentially created out of our memories\u2014the philosopher John Locke,\u00a0one of the pioneers of investigation into personal identity, once wrote that \u201cone\u2019s personal identity extends only so far as one\u2019s memories.\u201d But what happens when my memories are faulty? \u00a0I recall how jarring it was when I was a teenager to learn that a picture in my baby book (Facebook was not even a glimmer in anyone\u2019s imagination in those days) of me looking angelically at a candle flame taken when I was a year or two old was actually a picture of my brother\u00a0(my grandmother spilled the beans). That picture had become a part of my identity, and grandmaw ripped it away.<\/p>\n

How many other cornerstones of my identity, constructed out of my memories, are inaccurate or figments of my imagination? I feel an existential crisis coming on. But perhaps the accuracy of my remembered history is far less important than the need for me to embrace it as mine. I\u2019ve spent a long time over the years trying to delete corrupted files; now I want to spend just as much time inserting them into my present as core parts of my past projected into my future. Because \u201cday unto day takes up the story\u201d doesn\u2019t just apply to the heavens and the firmament\u2014it applies to me.<\/p>\n<\/body><\/html>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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