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When I bought the shirt, I didn\u2019t think much of it. It was for workouts, something practical and utilitarian. <\/span><\/p>\nThat, of course, is a lie. <\/span><\/p>\n I am smitten by all sorts of athleisure\u2013have been ever since I saw my first pair of Air Jordan\u2019s decades ago. I could never afford them (or any of the other shoes, shirts, or basketball shorts I coveted), so instead I dreamed about the day when I could roll through my life wearing a fresh pair of Jordan\u2019s, some Umbros, both paired with whatever cleverly worded Nike shirt was hot that season.<\/span><\/p>\n So this was history and nostalgia and perhaps even destiny at work as I stepped out of my car and walked through the shushing automatic doors of the big-box sporting goods store. When I saw the shirt from across the store\u2014\u201cATHLETE\u201d written boldly across the chest\u2014I thought, \u201cOh yeah. I\u2019m going to rock the shit out of that.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n I didn\u2019t expect the look on my wife\u2019s face when I modeled the shirt later that evening. You know, casually. Just seeing how it fit. Her eyes went from my chest (ATHLETE) to my eyes, and then back to the shirt (ATHLETE) as she tried to suppress a smile.<\/span><\/p>\n \u201cWhat?\u201d I said, immediately feeling self-conscious.<\/span><\/p>\n \u201cNothing\u2026\u201d She laughed, not unkindly, and waved her finger in the air like a wand. Like it would help her conjure what she wanted to say. <\/span><\/p>\n \u201cIt\u2019s just\u2026 it says <\/span>Athlete<\/span><\/i>. And it\u2019s really big!\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n To her credit, my best days as an athlete happened long before I met my wife. She saw half-hearted attempts at ultimate Frisbee. Limping through the intramural basketball season during Divinity school. But through high school and college, sports\u2014being an athlete\u2014defined me. Admittedly, in both good and bad ways. <\/span><\/p>\n I was fast, good with a ball. I was effortless on fields and courts and mats, unlike every other part of my life. But it also turned my mouth into a weapon, hurling so much trash it\u2019s amazing I never caught a beating. It connected me with friends I still have today, as well as teammates and coaches who made me feel inadequate and taught me to hide my personality and intellect for longer than I like to admit. And to this day, I am innately and, at times, unhelpfully competitive.<\/span><\/p>\n Playing sports didn\u2019t always bring out the best in me, but it was fundamental to my life. I would spend hours on the basketball court, playing whoever showed up. And even if nobody came because of minor difficulties like snow or bitter cold or \u201cgoing to the homecoming dance\u201d I would be there until the sun went down, putting up shot after shot. Dreaming of the day when all this work would be useful. When it would all pay off. And it did. I played college basketball for a minute until injuries and (ahem) my own inability to go to class submarined what could\u2019ve been a lot more.<\/span><\/p>\n Basically, I can\u2019t say I regret sports\u2014being an athlete. But my wife wasn\u2019t around for any of it, and the way she was looking at the t-shirt told me all I needed to know.<\/span><\/p>\n \u201cListen,\u201d she finally said, realizing that I was about to make this a thing, \u201cIf you like it, wear it.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n If we were going to bring math into this, the numbers weren\u2019t pretty. I\u2019d been out-of-shape and overweight longer than I\u2019d been athletic. The scale had tipped in the favor of sloth about five years ago. But the definition of identity requires a certain amount of\u2014I don\u2019t know\u2014<\/span>essence <\/span><\/i>that makes me wonder if certain things are immovable. If, maybe, we are always able to access certain parts of ourselves, even when they seem to be long gone.<\/span><\/p>\n Theologically, there\u2019s significance in remembering. We\u2019re asked to do it in the communion liturgy, on All Saints Day, Easter, and Christmas. What does it mean to reclaim something? To believe that dead things can come back again? <\/span><\/p>\n I could\u2019ve spent the rest of my life out of shape and nobody would\u2019ve faulted me for it. Hell, I often remember how easy it was to eat pizza and Nutty Bars, never even thinking about the gym. Despite the amount of time I spent not being athletic, the feeling (like much of my clothing, if we\u2019re being real) never fit. There was always something in the back of my brain, or perhaps it was deeper\u2014at the soul\u2019s level\u2014that kept reminding me of who I used to be.<\/span><\/p>\n However, the act of remembering isn\u2019t simply about who we used to be. It\u2019s alive, something that\u2019s real and present in our lives <\/span>right now<\/span><\/i>. At the risk of being cheesy, it allows us to become who we are.<\/span><\/p>\n So I wore the t-shirt to workout, ignoring the way my wife\u2019s eye kept cutting to it. The way she would smile. And when I walked through the doors of our gym that first day, watching as my friend Richard\u2019s eyes read the shirt (ATHLETE), I readied myself for a round of high-level trash talking.<\/span><\/p>\n Richard played pro football and he trumps me on the treadmill and in the weight room and (most importantly) whenever we get to talking about the glory days of football and basketball. <\/span><\/p>\n Instead, he smiled\u2014differently than my wife\u2014and said, \u201cNice shirt. I need to get me one of those.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n When I bought the shirt, I didn\u2019t think much of it. It was for workouts, something practical and utilitarian. That, of course, is a lie. 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Bryan Bliss is the author of the novels Meet Me Here<\/em>, No Parking at the End Times<\/em>, and We\u2019ll Fly Away<\/em>, all with HarperCollins. He holds graduate degrees from Seattle Pacific University and Vanderbilt Divinity School. He lives in Saint Paul, Minnesota, with his wife and kids.<\/p>\n<\/body><\/html>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"