{"id":1593,"date":"2012-10-04T11:00:47","date_gmt":"2012-10-04T18:00:47","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/goodletters\/?p=1593"},"modified":"2012-11-14T12:04:41","modified_gmt":"2012-11-14T19:04:41","slug":"words-both-real-and-true","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/goodletters\/2012\/10\/words-both-real-and-true\/","title":{"rendered":"Words both Real and True"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<\/head>

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\"\"<\/a>I belong to a movie group that meets monthly in one another\u2019s living rooms to discuss a current film. As soon as I read that this month\u2019s host had chosen The Words<\/a>,<\/em>\u00a0<\/em>I thought uh-oh. <\/em>Most movies about writers get it so wrong, with their scenes of furrowed brows on smooth, comely faces; crumpled pages littering the floor; and ta-da<\/em>: a finished manuscript.<\/p>\n

In Little Women <\/em>(the version with Winona Ryder and Gabriel Byrne), Louisa May Alcott puts down her pen, and ties up the finished pages with a ribbon. The End, <\/em>just like that. Or, in the case of The Words, -end-.<\/em><\/p>\n

But I don\u2019t bring this up to slam the movie, although almost every aspect of it disappointed me. Instead, I\u2019d like to explore a question that\u2019s been on my mind since walking out of the theater: What makes it so hard to hold onto ardor and enthusiasm and creative curiosity?<\/p>\n

<\/strong>Why, when our hero and his wife stand doe-eyed outside a building on a picturesque Parisian side street, did I roll my eyes even before the camera zoomed in on the plaque stating Ernest Hemingway Lived Here<\/em>? I\u2019m not sure there even is such a plaque in Paris, although most guidebooks list Hemingway\u2019s caf\u00e9 haunts.<\/p>\n

Why, when our hero turns to his loving wife and speaks of needing to say something real and true (or words to that effect), did I turn to Craig and make gagging sounds? Is this a function of a bad screenplay (the dialogue itself a kind of Hemingway parody) or of my own impatience with an innocence I once shared?<\/strong><\/p>\n

I\u2019d like to say something real and true, too, but I\u2019d never admit it straight out, while my spouse dried the dishes and I pounded out another page or two on the laptop. (I can\u2019t write with anyone else in the room, for one thing, let alone let my beloved read over my shoulder.)<\/strong><\/p>\n

This summer, Ellen Page\u2019s character in To Rome With Love <\/em><\/a>\u00a0<\/em>is portrayed as a wannabe creative type with her frequent quotes from wise sages, including Rilke. I groaned along with others in the audience, aligning myself with Woody Allen as someone hip to the point being made about Page\u2019s character\u2019s empty pretentiousness\u2014but, as many of you know, I blogged a few weeks ago in this very forum about Rilke<\/a>. <\/strong><\/p>\n

So, while I cringed at the clich\u00e9s and inaccuracies in The Words, <\/em>I also wondered when my eager wonder turned into something more sophisticated and mature, perhaps, but also less open. What might have been lost along the way?<\/strong><\/p>\n

To wit: I have two journals, one covered in sweet, feminine fabric with a ribbon to mark the page, the other printed with inspirational quotations from creative types.<\/strong><\/p>\n

The pink-fabric book came along first, in high school, when I started using it to record words and images. Thirty years later, it\u2019s stuffed with yellowed newspaper clippings, yellowing index cards, photos, and postcards. <\/strong><\/p>\n

Old Scotch tape has left yellow stains on the pages where once I fixed three-by-five reproductions of Carl Larsson\u2019s Swedish scenes of domestic life, of the Impressionists: Renoir\u2019s waterlilies, his maiden cuddling a cat, and Van Gogh\u2019s bedroom in Arles, and a Balthus, a Dine, and a Hockney. <\/strong><\/p>\n

The words and phrases scattered across the pages come from Erica Jong on courage and cynicism, from sonnets of Millay and Browning, \u201cIf it could weep, it could arise and go.\u201d From Colette, \u201cYou will do foolish things, but do them with enthusiasm,\u201d and Jawaharlal Nehru, \u201cBe brave, and the rest will follow.\u201d<\/strong><\/p>\n

When I look through this book, I\u2019m reminded of my former self, as shiny-eyed as Ellen Page\u2019s character. The difference being, I like to remind myself, that I didn\u2019t spout those quotations to impress others, I just kept them in a private journal. (Until now that is.) <\/strong><\/p>\n

I\u2019m reminded of the excitement upon coming across sentences so real and true that I had to make note of them. I was astonished by their simple accuracy in stating what I hadn\u2019t known I knew until I read them. <\/strong><\/p>\n

I\u2019m reminded of seeing images\u2014the pink sand of a Gauguin beach, in a Balthus the expression on the face of a girl as she leans in to place a card in front of the boy she\u2019s playing cards with, the lines in a Matisse cutout or a Modigliani neck\u2014that made me hold my breath. Ah, yes, that\u2019s it.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

I wanted to join the ranks of those who could make that happen. I longed to be a writer\u2014which I would soon enough learn to rephrase as \u201cI longed to write.\u201d <\/strong><\/p>\n

The scrapbook of clippings and postcards seems an early step in apprenticeship, in beginning to make my way by noting phrases and cutting out examples of tricks and skills that impressed me. Wow! <\/em>I wrote next to a section where Tolstoy describes Vronsky in the stables, and Check it out! <\/em>next to an Amy Bloom excerpt. <\/strong><\/p>\n

Returning to those exclamation points, tuning into that excitement, doesn\u2019t make a weak movie any better. It does, however, make me long for more examples that get it right. To show bright eyes and eager fingers, to portray the equivalent of an exclamation point, to make a viewer\u2019s heart and a reader\u2019s mind soar.<\/strong><\/p>\n<\/body><\/html>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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