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I am waiting.<\/p>\n

I know the time will come. I just don\u2019t know when.<\/p>\n

I try to get things done, and piddle around finding things to do. I prepare as best as I can think of, yet I feel it\u2019s never enough.<\/p>\n

I know my life is going to change forever, yet in the back of my mind I feel calm.<\/p>\n

I finish some work, start some more, and keep on counting the days, wondering when. Always wondering.<\/p>\n

Who knew that awaiting birth was so similar to awaiting death?<\/p>\n

I know I am going to die. Every day I try to save something to the side to help me on that day, and after it.<\/p>\n

I finish work that I think will help me, and start more work, always wondering: Will this be enough?<\/p>\n

The days pass calmly, with nothing happening and no indication of what is to come. I slip into a sense of false security.<\/p>\n

And I keep preparing. For my death, and the birth of my son.\u00a0 I feel bad that I am preparing more these days for the latter than for the former.<\/p>\n

I lie awake at night, crying. I pray to Allah to help me prepare for death with the same fervor I am preparing for life.<\/p>\n

Asiya Akyurt<\/p>\n

Asiya lives in Virginia with her husband and twin daughters. She is an active MAS member, and enjoys homeschooling herself and her daughters.<\/em><\/p>\n

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