{"id":16281,"date":"2019-10-22T03:00:04","date_gmt":"2019-10-22T09:00:04","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/admin.patheos.com\/blogs\/johnbeckett\/?p=16281"},"modified":"2019-10-21T14:37:46","modified_gmt":"2019-10-21T20:37:46","slug":"premonitions-and-disturbances","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/johnbeckett\/2019\/10\/premonitions-and-disturbances.html","title":{"rendered":"Premonitions and Disturbances and I\u2019m Not Sure What\u2019s Going On"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<\/head>

Sometimes I write because I have something to say that I think will be helpful to others. Sometimes I write because a deity wants something written and They pick me to write it. Other times, though, I write because there\u2019s something I need to work through, and rather than leave it in my private journal, I publish it so others can read it. Maybe someone else is going through the same thing. Maybe someone else has an insight that I\u2019ve overlooked.<\/p>\n

This post falls into that third category. This isn\u2019t exposition or analysis or advocacy. This is just me thinking in public.<\/p>\n

A disturbance in the force<\/h1>\n
In the past couple of weeks I\u2019ve had several people I consider both friends and experienced practitioners check in on me. To put it in pop culture terms, they \u201cfelt a disturbance in the force.\u201d While that disturbance wasn\u2019t centered on me, it was close enough they felt the need to check in.<\/p>\n
I\u2019m fine\u2026 or at least as close to fine as anybody can be these days. I\u2019m overloaded with mundane work, spiritual work, and trying to figure out how to live out the rest of my life in the Long Descent<\/a>. My health is OK, but age is bringing limitations I\u2019m not happy with. None of that is worthy of a premonition.<\/p>\n
My employer had a major layoff during this time. I still have a job, but some of my friends don\u2019t. Perhaps the disturbance around me means that I made the cut by a lot less than I assumed. Now that I think about it, I can easily see the decision makers weighing me vs. one other person and deciding that since he was a few years older and somewhat better paid, they\u2019d let him go and keep me.<\/p>\n
If you want to know why I\u2019m a liberal who\u2019s getting closer to socialism the older I get, this is at the top of the list. So much of \u201cwinning\u201d and \u201closing\u201d comes down to arbitrary decisions and random occurrences that are out of the control of the person who must bear the consequences. And many of those decisions \u2013 like this one \u2013 are made so that those who are already rich can get even richer.<\/p>\n
I don\u2019t intend for this post to be a political rant, but this is stream of consciousness writing and this is what it\u2019s like to be in my head\u2026<\/p>\n

Is this the new normal?<\/h1>\n
I\u2019m not very psychically sensitive. There are certain deities I can hear loud and clear, but They speak when They have something to say \u2013 it\u2019s not an on-going conversation. For the most part, if I want to hear\/see\/sense I have to stop, ground and center, lower my shields, and actively listen.<\/p>\n
When yet another person asked me if anything was going on, I decided I needed to pay attention. So I did what I do in these situations \u2013 divination.<\/p>\n
I asked \u201cwhat\u2019s going on that\u2019s causing people to check in on me?\u201d and threw a standard 10-card Tarot spread.<\/p>\n
I didn\u2019t take a picture of the reading and I don\u2019t remember all the cards. But it was about as clear and as low-key as you can get. I\u2019m on the right path, things are hard and they\u2019re going to remain hard, but I\u2019m going to get where I\u2019m trying to go.<\/p>\n
Ask a vague question, get a vague answer.<\/p>\n
But as I was picking up the cards, another thought occurred to me. Is this the new normal? Maybe my \u201chearing\u201d isn\u2019t bad. Maybe I\u2019ve been hearing this social and spiritual roar for so long I\u2019ve started tuning it out.<\/p>\n
We\u2019re never going back to the old normal<\/h1>\n
This much I know: whether you\u2019re talking politics or spirituality, the only way out is through. Things are never going to be like they used to be \u2013 for better and for worse.<\/p>\n
Some of you want to go back to 2015. Some see 1999 as the peak of the American empire. The MAGA folks want to go back to the 1950s. None of that is happening. The future will be different. The West will decline, China will rise, the climate will become more unfavorable, and the rich will figure out a way to stay rich and convince the rest of us to fight each other over what\u2019s left.<\/p>\n
Spiritually, I\u2019ve talked a lot about the Shredded Veil<\/a> over the past couple of years, and I\u2019ve speculated about what might be causing it<\/a>. I don\u2019t really know any more about the causes now than I did three years ago, but I\u2019m even more convinced that magic and Otherworldly influences are getting stronger. The myths and methods that served our parents and grandparents well will at best be sub-optimal for us. They may be entirely inadequate.<\/p>\n
If this is the new normal and I haven\u2019t noticed it, what else am I missing?<\/p>\n
With my shields down and my ears open, I suddenly felt the need to ask that question to a different deck \u2013 the Sola Busca.<\/p>\n
The Sola Busca \u2013 a dark Tarot for dark times<\/h1>\n
I reviewed the Sola Busca Tarot<\/a> last month. If you missed that post I suggest you read it now. The Sola Busca has been dated to 1491 (a date I now think is probably correct) and it\u2019s unlike any other deck from that era\u2026 or really, any era before the last few years.<\/p>\n
Since that review, I read The Game of Saturn<\/em><\/a>\u00a0by Peter Mark Adams. This book is religious and political detective work, trying to uncover the origins and purposes of the Sola Busca. The details Adams presents are plausible but unconvincing. However, his main thesis is almost certainly correct.<\/p>\n
$\"The$ <\/a><\/p>\n
The Sola Busca was a diplomatic and magical attempt by a powerful Italian family to regain the stature it lost in a conflict with Venice. It was an attempt at a Pagan revival \u2013 not in the sense of converting Italy from Christianity back to ancestral Roman religion, but rather an attempt to invoke the power of Pagan Gods and heroes for their own private use.<\/p>\n
Remember that this is the same environment that produced Niccol\u00f2\u00a0Machiavelli<\/a>, who lived from 1469 to 1527 in Florence, yet another competing Italian city-state.<\/p>\n
I cannot help but think of those in our time who profess a Christian faith but whose lives could not be farther from the life and teachings of Jesus of Nazareth. Their real religion is the pursuit of unbridled power and wealth.<\/p>\n
The Sola Busca speaks to our time and our circumstances here and now. I\u2019m going to continue to experiment with it and see what I can find.<\/p>\n
Getting ready to fight the last war<\/h1>\n
I learned to read Tarot<\/a> by committing the \u201cstandard\u201d meanings of the cards to memory. Only then did the cards start to speak to me. Lately, though, I\u2019ve been listening to Camelia Elias<\/a>: \u201cjust read the damn cards.\u201d<\/p>\n
I asked \u201cwhat in all this am I overlooking?\u201d and I threw a 5-card spread, from left to right.<\/p>\n
$\"Sola$ <\/a><\/p>\n
The first thing I noticed was the prominence of the six swords and the ten batons. I think it was Gordon White who said that while the suit of batons generally corresponds with the suit of wands, a baton is not a wand. A baton is a weapon used by those in authority to beat people into submission. Throw in the ace of swords (swords are used to kill people) and you have a very authoritarian spread.<\/p>\n
The second thing I noticed was that for the most part, the figures in these cards are facing left. For this reading, that means they\u2019re looking backwards.<\/p>\n
These cards do not show overt conflict. They show preparations for conflict, only the kind of conflict we\u2019ve experienced in the past. The old saying is that generals are always preparing to fight the previous war, and thus end up being unprepared for the next war that inevitably comes.<\/p>\n
Am I spending too much time studying the past? Am I assuming that the strategies and tactics that got me this far will take me the rest of the way?<\/p>\n
Are you?<\/p>\n
Does any of this sound familiar?<\/h1>\n
If this was an ordinary blog post, this is where I\u2019d write something encouraging you to think about what I said, and if you found it helpful, to put it into action. But there\u2019s no call to action here, because I don\u2019t know what I\u2019d suggest you do. I don\u2019t even know if this reading is all about me or if it concerns our wider community as well.<\/p>\n
I know the \u201cdisturbance in the force\u201d worries me. I think it\u2019s a wakeup call telling me that I\u2019m a frog and that this nice pan of room temperature water I\u2019ve been sitting in is getting awfully hot.<\/p>\n
I\u2019m most concerned about the reading with the Sola Busca. I pride myself on paying attention and being ready for what\u2019s coming. This tells me I\u2019m looking at the wrong things. This requires more thought, more meditation, and likely, more divination.<\/p>\n
And that\u2019s all I have. If any of this sounds familiar, I\u2019d appreciate hearing your stories. If you have any insights, I\u2019d love to hear them. I don\u2019t promise I\u2019ll agree with them, but I do promise I\u2019ll listen.<\/p>\n
I welcome any observations that advance the conversation, no matter what you think of premonitions and divination. Comments that are condescending and dismissive \u2013 from any religious or philosophical viewpoint \u2013 will be deleted without warning.<\/p>\n<\/body><\/html>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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