{"id":115089,"date":"2020-02-26T00:58:30","date_gmt":"2020-02-26T07:58:30","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/admin.patheos.com\/blogs\/markshea\/?p=115089"},"modified":"2020-01-15T22:00:51","modified_gmt":"2020-01-16T05:00:51","slug":"ash-wednesday-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/markshea\/2020\/02\/ash-wednesday-2.html","title":{"rendered":"Ash Wednesday"},"content":{"rendered":"<!DOCTYPE html PUBLIC \"-\/\/W3C\/\/DTD HTML 4.0 Transitional\/\/EN\" \"http:\/\/www.w3.org\/TR\/REC-html40\/loose.dtd\">\n<html><head><meta http-equiv=\"content-type\" content=\"text\/html; charset=utf-8\"><meta http-equiv=\"content-type\" content=\"text\/html; charset=utf-8\"><\/head><body><div>I\n<p>Because I do not hope to turn again<br>\nBecause I do not hope<br>\nBecause I do not hope to turn<br>\nDesiring this man\u2019s gift and that man\u2019s scope<br>\nI no longer strive to strive towards such things<br>\n(Why should the ag\u00e8d eagle stretch its wings?)<br>\nWhy should I mourn<br>\nThe vanished power of the usual reign?<\/p>\n<p>Because I do not hope to know<br>\nThe infirm glory of the positive hour<br>\nBecause I do not think<br>\nBecause I know I shall not know<br>\nThe one veritable transitory power<br>\nBecause I cannot drink<br>\nThere, where trees flower, and springs flow, for there is<br>\nnothing again<\/p>\n<p>Because I know that time is always time<br>\nAnd place is always and only place<br>\nAnd what is actual is actual only for one time<br>\nAnd only for one place<br>\nI rejoice that things are as they are and<br>\nI renounce the bless\u00e8d face<br>\nAnd renounce the voice<br>\nBecause I cannot hope to turn again<br>\nConsequently I rejoice, having to construct something<br>\nUpon which to rejoice<\/p>\n<p>And pray to God to have mercy upon us<br>\nAnd pray that I may forget<br>\nThese matters that with myself I too much discuss<br>\nToo much explain<br>\nBecause I do not hope to turn again<br>\nLet these words answer<br>\nFor what is done, not to be done again<br>\nMay the judgement not be too heavy upon us<\/p>\n<p>Because these wings are no longer wings to fly<br>\nBut merely vans to beat the air<br>\nThe air which is now thoroughly small and dry<br>\nSmaller and dryer than the will<br>\nTeach us to care and not to care Teach us to sit still.<\/p>\n<p>Pray for us sinners now and at the hour of our death<br>\nPray for us now and at the hour of our death.<\/p>\n<p>II<br>\nLady, three white leopards sat under a juniper-tree<br>\nIn the cool of the day, having fed to sateity<br>\nOn my legs my heart my liver and that which had been<br>\ncontained<br>\nIn the hollow round of my skull. And God said<br>\nShall these bones live? shall these<br>\nBones live? And that which had been contained<br>\nIn the bones (which were already dry) said chirping:<br>\nBecause of the goodness of this Lady<br>\nAnd because of her loveliness, and because<br>\nShe honours the Virgin in meditation,<br>\nWe shine with brightness. And I who am here dissembled<br>\nProffer my deeds to oblivion, and my love<br>\nTo the posterity of the desert and the fruit of the gourd.<br>\nIt is this which recovers<br>\nMy guts the strings of my eyes and the indigestible portions<br>\nWhich the leopards reject. The Lady is withdrawn<br>\nIn a white gown, to contemplation, in a white gown.<br>\nLet the whiteness of bones atone to forgetfulness.<br>\nThere is no life in them. As I am forgotten<br>\nAnd would be forgotten, so I would forget<br>\nThus devoted, concentrated in purpose. And God said<br>\nProphesy to the wind, to the wind only for only<br>\nThe wind will listen. And the bones sang chirping<br>\nWith the burden of the grasshopper, saying<\/p>\n<p>Lady of silences<br>\nCalm and distressed<br>\nTorn and most whole<br>\nRose of memory<br>\nRose of forgetfulness<br>\nExhausted and life-giving<br>\nWorried reposeful<br>\nThe single Rose<br>\nIs now the Garden<br>\nWhere all loves end<br>\nTerminate torment<br>\nOf love unsatisfied<br>\nThe greater torment<br>\nOf love satisfied<br>\nEnd of the endless<br>\nJourney to no end<br>\nConclusion of all that<br>\nIs inconclusible<br>\nSpeech without word and<br>\nWord of no speech<br>\nGrace to the Mother<br>\nFor the Garden<br>\nWhere all love ends.<\/p>\n<p>Under a juniper-tree the bones sang, scattered and shining<br>\nWe are glad to be scattered, we did little good to each<br>\nother,<br>\nUnder a tree in the cool of day, with the blessing of sand,<br>\nForgetting themselves and each other, united<br>\nIn the quiet of the desert. This is the land which ye<br>\nShall divide by lot. And neither division nor unity<br>\nMatters. This is the land. We have our inheritance.<\/p>\n<p>III<\/p>\n<p>At the first turning of the second stair<br>\nI turned and saw below<br>\nThe same shape twisted on the banister<br>\nUnder the vapour in the fetid air<br>\nStruggling with the devil of the stairs who wears<br>\nThe deceitul face of hope and of despair.<\/p>\n<p>At the second turning of the second stair<br>\nI left them twisting, turning below;<br>\nThere were no more faces and the stair was dark,<br>\nDamp, jagg\u00e8d, like an old man\u2019s mouth drivelling, beyond<br>\nrepair,<br>\nOr the toothed gullet of an ag\u00e8d shark.<\/p>\n<p>At the first turning of the third stair<br>\nWas a slotted window bellied like the figs\u2019s fruit<br>\nAnd beyond the hawthorn blossom and a pasture scene<br>\nThe broadbacked figure drest in blue and green<br>\nEnchanted the maytime with an antique flute.<br>\nBlown hair is sweet, brown hair over the mouth blown,<br>\nLilac and brown hair;<br>\nDistraction, music of the flute, stops and steps of the mind<br>\nover the third stair,<br>\nFading, fading; strength beyond hope and despair<br>\nClimbing the third stair.<\/p>\n<p>Lord, I am not worthy<br>\nLord, I am not worthy<\/p>\n<p>but speak the word only.<\/p>\n<p>IV<br>\nWho walked between the violet and the violet<br>\nWhe walked between<br>\nThe various ranks of varied green<br>\nGoing in white and blue, in Mary\u2019s colour,<br>\nTalking of trivial things<br>\nIn ignorance and knowledge of eternal dolour<br>\nWho moved among the others as they walked,<br>\nWho then made strong the fountains and made fresh the springs<\/p>\n<p>Made cool the dry rock and made firm the sand<br>\nIn blue of larkspur, blue of Mary\u2019s colour,<br>\nSovegna vos<\/p>\n<p>Here are the years that walk between, bearing<br>\nAway the fiddles and the flutes, restoring<br>\nOne who moves in the time between sleep and waking, wearing<\/p>\n<p>White light folded, sheathing about her, folded.<br>\nThe new years walk, restoring<br>\nThrough a bright cloud of tears, the years, restoring<br>\nWith a new verse the ancient rhyme. Redeem<br>\nThe time. Redeem<br>\nThe unread vision in the higher dream<br>\nWhile jewelled unicorns draw by the gilded hearse.<\/p>\n<p>The silent sister veiled in white and blue<br>\nBetween the yews, behind the garden god,<br>\nWhose flute is breathless, bent her head and signed but spoke<br>\nno word<\/p>\n<p>But the fountain sprang up and the bird sang down<br>\nRedeem the time, redeem the dream<br>\nThe token of the word unheard, unspoken<\/p>\n<p>Till the wind shake a thousand whispers from the yew<\/p>\n<p>And after this our exile<\/p>\n<p>V<br>\nIf the lost word is lost, if the spent word is spent<br>\nIf the unheard, unspoken<br>\nWord is unspoken, unheard;<br>\nStill is the unspoken word, the Word unheard,<br>\nThe Word without a word, the Word within<br>\nThe world and for the world;<br>\nAnd the light shone in darkness and<br>\nAgainst the Word the unstilled world still whirled<br>\nAbout the centre of the silent Word.<\/p>\n<p>O my people, what have I done unto thee.<\/p>\n<p>Where shall the word be found, where will the word<br>\nResound? Not here, there is not enough silence<br>\nNot on the sea or on the islands, not<br>\nOn the mainland, in the desert or the rain land,<br>\nFor those who walk in darkness<br>\nBoth in the day time and in the night time<br>\nThe right time and the right place are not here<br>\nNo place of grace for those who avoid the face<br>\nNo time to rejoice for those who walk among noise and deny<br>\nthe voice<\/p>\n<p>Will the veiled sister pray for<br>\nThose who walk in darkness, who chose thee and oppose thee,<br>\nThose who are torn on the horn between season and season,<br>\ntime and time, between<br>\nHour and hour, word and word, power and power, those who wait<br>\nIn darkness? Will the veiled sister pray<br>\nFor children at the gate<br>\nWho will not go away and cannot pray:<br>\nPray for those who chose and oppose<\/p>\n<p>O my people, what have I done unto thee.<\/p>\n<p>Will the veiled sister between the slender<br>\nYew trees pray for those who offend her<br>\nAnd are terrified and cannot surrender<br>\nAnd affirm before the world and deny between the rocks<br>\nIn the last desert before the last blue rocks<br>\nThe desert in the garden the garden in the desert<br>\nOf drouth, spitting from the mouth the withered apple-seed.<\/p>\n<p>O my people.<\/p>\n<p>VI<br>\nAlthough I do not hope to turn again<br>\nAlthough I do not hope<br>\nAlthough I do not hope to turn<\/p>\n<p>Wavering between the profit and the loss<br>\nIn this brief transit where the dreams cross<br>\nThe dreamcrossed twilight between birth and dying<br>\n(Bless me father) though I do not wish to wish these things<br>\nFrom the wide window towards the granite shore<br>\nThe white sails still fly seaward, seaward flying<br>\nUnbroken wings<\/p>\n<p>And the lost heart stiffens and rejoices<br>\nIn the lost lilac and the lost sea voices<br>\nAnd the weak spirit quickens to rebel<br>\nFor the bent golden-rod and the lost sea smell<br>\nQuickens to recover<br>\nThe cry of quail and the whirling plover<br>\nAnd the blind eye creates<br>\nThe empty forms between the ivory gates<br>\nAnd smell renews the salt savour of the sandy earth<\/p>\n<p>This is the time of tension between dying and birth<br>\nThe place of solitude where three dreams cross<br>\nBetween blue rocks<br>\nBut when the voices shaken from the yew-tree drift away<br>\nLet the other yew be shaken and reply.<\/p>\n<p>Bless\u00e8d sister, holy mother, spirit of the fountain, spirit<br>\nof the garden,<br>\nSuffer us not to mock ourselves with falsehood<br>\nTeach us to care and not to care<br>\nTeach us to sit still<br>\nEven among these rocks,<br>\nOur peace in His will<br>\nAnd even among these rocks<br>\nSister, mother<br>\nAnd spirit of the river, spirit of the sea,<br>\nSuffer me not to be separated<\/p>\n<p>And let my cry come unto Thee.<\/p><\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>\u2013 T.S. 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