{"id":1366,"date":"2008-09-26T12:27:00","date_gmt":"2008-09-26T12:27:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/monkeymind\/2008\/09\/the-soul-i-understand\/"},"modified":"2011-11-01T15:12:15","modified_gmt":"2011-11-01T19:12:15","slug":"the-soul-i-understand","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/monkeymind\/2008\/09\/the-soul-i-understand.html","title":{"rendered":"The Soul I Understand"},"content":{"rendered":"<!DOCTYPE html PUBLIC \"-\/\/W3C\/\/DTD HTML 4.0 Transitional\/\/EN\" \"http:\/\/www.w3.org\/TR\/REC-html40\/loose.dtd\">\n<html><head><meta http-equiv=\"content-type\" content=\"text\/html; charset=utf-8\"><meta http-equiv=\"content-type\" content=\"text\/html; charset=utf-8\"><\/head><body><p><a href=\"http:\/\/1.bp.blogspot.com\/_niPwTW3rBbU\/SN0OriVjgAI\/AAAAAAAABSA\/UGExEJignzI\/s1600-h\/dancing+death\" class=\" decorated-link\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"nofollow\"><img decoding=\"async\" style=\"margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px;float: right;cursor: pointer\" src=\"https:\/\/1.bp.blogspot.com\/_niPwTW3rBbU\/SN0OriVjgAI\/AAAAAAAABSA\/UGExEJignzI\/s320\/dancing+death\" alt=\"\" border=\"0\"><\/a><span style=\"font-style: italic\">NOTHING\u2019S A GIFT<\/span><\/p>\n<p>Nothing\u2019s a gift, it\u2019s all on loan.<br>I\u2019m drowning in debts up to my ears.<br>I\u2019ll have to pay for myself<br>with my self,<br>give up my life for my life.<\/p>\n<p>Here\u2019s how it\u2019s arranged:<br>The heart can be repossessed,<br>the liver, too,<br>and each single finger and toe.<\/p>\n<p>Too late to tear up the terms,<br>my debts will be repaid,<br>and I\u2019ll be fleeced,<br>or, more precisely, flayed.<\/p>\n<p>I move about the planet<br>in a crush of other debtors.<br>some are saddled with the burden<br>of paying off their wings.<br>Others must, willy-nilly,<br>account for every leaf.<\/p>\n<p>Every tissue in us lies<br>on the debit side.<br>Not a tenacle or tendril<br>is for keeps.<\/p>\n<p>The inventory, infinitely detailed,<br>implies we\u2019ll be left<br>not just empty-handed<br>but handless too.<\/p>\n<p>I can\u2019t remember<br>where, when, and why<br>I let someone open<br>this account in my name.<\/p>\n<p>We call the protest against this<br>the soul.<br>And it\u2019s the only item<br>not included on the list.<\/p>\n<p>~ Wislawa Szymborska ~<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-style: italic\"> <span style=\"font-weight: bold\">Poems New and Collected 1957-1997<\/span>,<\/span> trans. S. Baranczak and C. Cavanagh<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-style: italic\">Thank you, Kayle!<\/span><\/p>\n<div class=\"blogger-post-footer\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"1\" height=\"1\" src=\"https:\/\/blogger.googleusercontent.com\/tracker\/33904114-8527606624616456863?l=monkeymindonline.blogspot.com\" alt=\"\"><\/div>\n<\/body><\/html>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>NOTHING\u2019S A GIFT Nothing\u2019s a gift, it\u2019s all on loan.I\u2019m drowning in debts up to my ears.I\u2019ll have to pay for myselfwith my self,give up my life for my life. Here\u2019s how it\u2019s arranged:The heart can be repossessed,the liver, too,and each single finger and toe. 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