what am i to do?<\/title>\n<meta name=\"description\" content=\"I've been experiencing some confusion over the last few days. Some of you probably think I've been confused much longer. But in my mind, just for a few\" \/>\n<meta name=\"robots\" content=\"index, follow, max-snippet:-1, max-image-preview:large, max-video-preview:-1\" \/>\n<link rel=\"canonical\" href=\"https:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/nakedpastor\/2011\/12\/what-am-i-to-do\/\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:locale\" content=\"en_US\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:type\" content=\"article\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:title\" content=\"what am i to do?\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:description\" content=\"I've been experiencing some confusion over the last few days. Some of you probably think I've been confused much longer. But in my mind, just for a few\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:url\" content=\"https:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/nakedpastor\/2011\/12\/what-am-i-to-do\/\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:site_name\" content=\"nakedpastor\" \/>\n<meta property=\"article:published_time\" content=\"2011-12-24T20:16:20+00:00\" \/>\n<meta name=\"author\" content=\"David Hayward\" \/>\n<meta name=\"twitter:card\" content=\"summary_large_image\" \/>\n<meta name=\"twitter:label1\" content=\"Written by\" \/>\n\t<meta name=\"twitter:data1\" content=\"David Hayward\" \/>\n\t<meta name=\"twitter:label2\" content=\"Est. reading time\" \/>\n\t<meta name=\"twitter:data2\" content=\"2 minutes\" \/>\n<script type=\"application\/ld+json\" class=\"yoast-schema-graph\">{\"@context\":\"https:\/\/schema.org\",\"@graph\":[{\"@type\":\"WebPage\",\"@id\":\"https:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/nakedpastor\/2011\/12\/what-am-i-to-do\/\",\"url\":\"https:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/nakedpastor\/2011\/12\/what-am-i-to-do\/\",\"name\":\"what am i to do?\",\"isPartOf\":{\"@id\":\"https:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/nakedpastor\/#website\"},\"datePublished\":\"2011-12-24T20:16:20+00:00\",\"dateModified\":\"2011-12-24T20:16:20+00:00\",\"author\":{\"@id\":\"https:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/nakedpastor\/#\/schema\/person\/b03e284877607fc17deb854c047e58d9\"},\"description\":\"I've been experiencing some confusion over the last few days. Some of you probably think I've been confused much longer. But in my mind, just for a few\",\"breadcrumb\":{\"@id\":\"https:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/nakedpastor\/2011\/12\/what-am-i-to-do\/#breadcrumb\"},\"inLanguage\":\"en-US\",\"potentialAction\":[{\"@type\":\"ReadAction\",\"target\":[\"https:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/nakedpastor\/2011\/12\/what-am-i-to-do\/\"]}]},{\"@type\":\"BreadcrumbList\",\"@id\":\"https:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/nakedpastor\/2011\/12\/what-am-i-to-do\/#breadcrumb\",\"itemListElement\":[{\"@type\":\"ListItem\",\"position\":1,\"name\":\"Home\",\"item\":\"https:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/nakedpastor\/\"},{\"@type\":\"ListItem\",\"position\":2,\"name\":\"what am i to do?\"}]},{\"@type\":\"WebSite\",\"@id\":\"https:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/nakedpastor\/#website\",\"url\":\"https:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/nakedpastor\/\",\"name\":\"nakedpastor\",\"description\":\"David Hayward: grafitti artist on the walls of religion.\",\"potentialAction\":[{\"@type\":\"SearchAction\",\"target\":{\"@type\":\"EntryPoint\",\"urlTemplate\":\"https:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/nakedpastor\/?s={search_term_string}\"},\"query-input\":\"required name=search_term_string\"}],\"inLanguage\":\"en-US\"},{\"@type\":\"Person\",\"@id\":\"https:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/nakedpastor\/#\/schema\/person\/b03e284877607fc17deb854c047e58d9\",\"name\":\"David Hayward\",\"description\":\"David Hayward runs the blog nakedpastor as a graffiti artist on the walls of religion where he critiques religion\u2026 specifically Christianity and the church. He also runs the online community The Lasting Supper where people can help themselves discover, explore and live in spiritual freedom. gading88 gading 88 login togel sgp 2d togel sdy 2d gading88 daftar gading88 login togel taiwan 2d gading 88 games gading 88 gading88 slot Playz Store\",\"sameAs\":[\"http:\/\/niimi.5374.jp\/\"],\"url\":\"https:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/nakedpastor\/author\/david\/\"}]}<\/script>\n","yoast_head_json":{"title":"what am i to do?","description":"I've been experiencing some confusion over the last few days. Some of you probably think I've been confused much longer. But in my mind, just for a few","robots":{"index":"index","follow":"follow","max-snippet":"max-snippet:-1","max-image-preview":"max-image-preview:large","max-video-preview":"max-video-preview:-1"},"canonical":"https:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/nakedpastor\/2011\/12\/what-am-i-to-do\/","og_locale":"en_US","og_type":"article","og_title":"what am i to do?","og_description":"I've been experiencing some confusion over the last few days. Some of you probably think I've been confused much longer. But in my mind, just for a few","og_url":"https:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/nakedpastor\/2011\/12\/what-am-i-to-do\/","og_site_name":"nakedpastor","article_published_time":"2011-12-24T20:16:20+00:00","author":"David Hayward","twitter_card":"summary_large_image","twitter_misc":{"Written by":"David Hayward","Est. reading time":"2 minutes"},"schema":{"@context":"https:\/\/schema.org","@graph":[{"@type":"WebPage","@id":"https:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/nakedpastor\/2011\/12\/what-am-i-to-do\/","url":"https:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/nakedpastor\/2011\/12\/what-am-i-to-do\/","name":"what am i to do?","isPartOf":{"@id":"https:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/nakedpastor\/#website"},"datePublished":"2011-12-24T20:16:20+00:00","dateModified":"2011-12-24T20:16:20+00:00","author":{"@id":"https:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/nakedpastor\/#\/schema\/person\/b03e284877607fc17deb854c047e58d9"},"description":"I've been experiencing some confusion over the last few days. Some of you probably think I've been confused much longer. But in my mind, just for a few","breadcrumb":{"@id":"https:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/nakedpastor\/2011\/12\/what-am-i-to-do\/#breadcrumb"},"inLanguage":"en-US","potentialAction":[{"@type":"ReadAction","target":["https:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/nakedpastor\/2011\/12\/what-am-i-to-do\/"]}]},{"@type":"BreadcrumbList","@id":"https:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/nakedpastor\/2011\/12\/what-am-i-to-do\/#breadcrumb","itemListElement":[{"@type":"ListItem","position":1,"name":"Home","item":"https:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/nakedpastor\/"},{"@type":"ListItem","position":2,"name":"what am i to do?"}]},{"@type":"WebSite","@id":"https:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/nakedpastor\/#website","url":"https:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/nakedpastor\/","name":"nakedpastor","description":"David Hayward: grafitti artist on the walls of religion.","potentialAction":[{"@type":"SearchAction","target":{"@type":"EntryPoint","urlTemplate":"https:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/nakedpastor\/?s={search_term_string}"},"query-input":"required name=search_term_string"}],"inLanguage":"en-US"},{"@type":"Person","@id":"https:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/nakedpastor\/#\/schema\/person\/b03e284877607fc17deb854c047e58d9","name":"David Hayward","description":"David Hayward runs the blog nakedpastor as a graffiti artist on the walls of religion where he critiques religion\u2026 specifically Christianity and the church. He also runs the online community The Lasting Supper where people can help themselves discover, explore and live in spiritual freedom. gading88 gading 88 login togel sgp 2d togel sdy 2d gading88 daftar gading88 login togel taiwan 2d gading 88 games gading 88 gading88 slot Playz Store","sameAs":["http:\/\/niimi.5374.jp\/"],"url":"https:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/nakedpastor\/author\/david\/"}]}},"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/nakedpastor\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10084","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/nakedpastor\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/nakedpastor\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/nakedpastor\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/349"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/nakedpastor\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=10084"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/nakedpastor\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10084\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/nakedpastor\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=10084"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/nakedpastor\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=10084"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/nakedpastor\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=10084"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}

{"id":10084,"date":"2011-12-24T16:16:20","date_gmt":"2011-12-24T20:16:20","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.nakedpastor.com\/?p=10084"},"modified":"2011-12-24T16:16:20","modified_gmt":"2011-12-24T20:16:20","slug":"what-am-i-to-do","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/nakedpastor\/2011\/12\/what-am-i-to-do\/","title":{"rendered":"what am i to do?"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<\/head>

I love the church and those within it and have always felt that this was the focus of my ministry. However, I\u2019ve been feeling myself more and more marginalized by these.\u00a0For instance, there was a man who was trying to get me to come to his college chapel as a guest speaker. He was finally told that I would not be invited because, after reviewing my blog, they decided I was not orthodox enough.\u00a0This didn\u2019t come as a shock. But Lisa pointed out that I was in some kind of a mood, and I realized that the news percolated deep within me and caused me to question what it is I do. This is nothing new. I\u2019ve experienced this for years, even within the church.<\/p>\n

Why do I do what I do? If those I want to serve don\u2019t receive it, then what\u2019s the point? I invite them to my banquet that I so passionately and carefully and lovingly prepare and few come. Lisa said, \u201cWhy do you expect that which you critique to embrace you?<\/em>\u201d Good question! She also said, \u201cYou wrote a whole book on vision<\/a>, yet you are full of expectations and hopes and dreams about your blog. It\u2019s killing you and paralyzing your blog. You need to let the vision you have for nakedpastor die.<\/em>\u201d She\u2019s right.<\/p>\n

I need to do what I do because I love it. Period. I am passionate about it. Lisa challenged me: \u201cYou are a sower. Sow the seed everywhere. Cast it all around. Generously! Where it will take, it will take. Don\u2019t worry about the rest. Make the feast and let it feed those who come. Don\u2019t be resentful about the others who reject it.<\/em>\u201d She\u2019s right. She pointed out that I should notice that most of my readers are not even within the church and have been totally rejected by the church and marginalized by Christianity. She\u2019s right.<\/p>\n

I have lots of good friends who give me wise strategic advice about how to make my blog more successful and profitable. I appreciate them all. But I\u2019ve decided I can\u2019t go there. I don\u2019t make any money from my blog and very little from my art. I don\u2019t make anywhere near a living off of it like some people assume, and I have no hopes that I will. Nakedpastor is my church, and I have to keep it free of vision or it will kill it just like I\u2019ve seen vision kill other communities before.<\/p>\n

So I\u2019m going to keep cooking and serving. You are always welcome to come and dine.<\/p>\n

And\u2026 as you can see\u2026 where would I be without my Lisa?<\/p>\n<\/body><\/html>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"