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<\/a>On my sabbatical I\u2019ve been slowly reading back through the trilogy of Frederick Buechner\u2019s memoirs. I\u2019ve read them all more than once, so for variety\u2019s sake I took them in reverse order \u2013 Telling Secrets<\/em>, Now and Then<\/em>, The Sacred Journey<\/em>. The middle book contains what has to be one of my favorite bits of writing by Buechner in all his work.<\/p>\nHe tells the story of going to a seminar on prayer. The presenter was an Episcopalian faith-healer (I know, right?) named Agnes Sanford. Buechner says she looked more like the moderator of a civic organization than a faith healer, direct and down to earth. And this is what she said.<\/p>\n
She often pictured Jesus standing in churches in the midst of Sunday worship with his hands tied behind his back, unable to\u00a0do any mighty works because the ministers either didn\u2019t expect him to, or were too afraid to ask. Buechner confessed his own kinship with those who suspected that God neither needed their prayers nor really wanted them. Doubts, confusion, even just the various uncertain processes of the spiritual journey probably put us all in this category from time to time. God knows there are many days I wake up feeling much more lost than found.<\/p>\n
The whole point, according to the Episcopalian faith-healer, was that you had to expect God to show up, believe that something might indeed happen when you pray. It was faith, she told them, that unbound the hands of Christ.<\/p>\n
\u201cInside us all, she said, there was a voice of doubt and disbelief which sought to drown out our prayers even as we were praying them, but we were to pray down that voice for all we were worth because it was simply the product in us of old hurts, griefs, failures, of all that the world had done to try to destroy our faith. More even than our bodies, she said, it was these hurtful memories that needed healing \u2026<\/p>\n
The healing of memories was like the forgiveness of sins, she said. Prayer was like a game, a little ridiculous the way she described it, but we were to play it anyway \u2013 praying for the healing both of ourselves and others \u2013 because Jesus told us to and because most of the other games we played were more ridiculous still and not half so useful.\u201d<\/p><\/blockquote>\n
Those two points really struck home to me this morning. First, that Jesus\u2019 hands are tied by our\u00a0own unbelief. Part of our\u00a0job is to fight back against our\u00a0doubt and disbelief. Not that we need to\u00a0practice self-deception, but rather that we need to acknowledge that the\u00a0natural disposition is belief. Doubt and disbelief are more a result of old hurts, griefs, failures and all the world has done to destroy our faith.\u201d<\/p>\n
The second point is nearly as important. Prayer is like a game. Sure it can seem ridiculous at times, but we have to play it anyway because Jesus told us to and because, after all, we play silly games all day long<\/em>. At least the silly game we call prayer is deeply human, humane, and humanizing as opposed to the other games we play in our life that are not half so useful.<\/p>\n
The language of prayer didn\u2019t matter. Only the faith. And faith must be practiced over time, just as doubt and disbelief must be resisted over time. Faith gets stronger with practice, and disbelief will abate when consistently opposed. Maybe this is a bit of a mind game. But what isn\u2019t a mind game? At least this game has us reaching for the divine that lives inside us all.<\/p>\n
Faith in God \u2013 in the power of Christ to heal and set us free even from our past hurts, griefs, and failures \u2013 is not for those who are so fortunate (or not, depending upon how you look at it) to never struggle with unbelief. Faith in God and the power of Christ is for those who struggle to believe, and work at it anyway.<\/p>\n
While he was teaching at Exeter academy Buechner was once leading a chapel service with 800 cynical kids and faculty who were suspicious of all things religious, but really liked their honest and earnet\u00a0religious studies teacher (Buechner himself). Two members of the Exeter community were dying of cancer and on a whim he stopped the service and asked them all\u00a0to pray silently that God would heal their friends. Either out of compassion or shear surprise at being asked they all, to a person, seemed to earnestly pray together in a moment of stillness and quiet that was pregnant with the divine.<\/p>\n
Nobody was healed. They both succumbed to cancer. What Buechner said about that experience, however, was that somehow the bonds of community and the love that existed in that community was enhanced and nourished by that time of silent prayer. It wasn\u2019t the result\u00a0they prayed for exactly, but the result of the prayer wasn\u2019t insignificant. This is another reason to practice prayer, to fight against doubt and disbelief, to\u00a0bang on the doors of heaven, to address God even if you don\u2019t believe in God.<\/p>\n<\/body><\/html>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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