{"id":69,"date":"2011-11-08T10:30:00","date_gmt":"2011-11-08T10:30:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/permissiontolive\/2011\/11\/a-new-partnership\/"},"modified":"2013-02-08T10:57:52","modified_gmt":"2013-02-08T17:57:52","slug":"a-new-partnership","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/permissiontolive\/2011\/11\/a-new-partnership.html","title":{"rendered":"A new partnership"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<\/head>
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Recently<\/span> my husband and I ended up fighting on and off all weekend about (of all things!) housework. The argument went something like this:<\/p>\n

He said:<\/strong> The house is so messy right now.<\/em><\/p>\n

I heard:<\/strong> You are falling down on the job.<\/em><\/p>\n

He meant:<\/strong> I\u2019m so f***ing tired right now.<\/em><\/p>\n

I said:<\/strong> So you wish we were back in the patriarchal model and everything were sparkling when you walked in the door?<\/em><\/p>\n

He heard:<\/strong> So you\u2019re are a misogynist pig?<\/em><\/p>\n

I meant:<\/strong> I am just so f***ing tired.<\/em><\/p>\n

Re-phrase and repeat for several hours of nitpicking each other.<\/p>\n

We hadn\u2019t really fought in months, but after a long trip, and a flurry of church activities and a few illnesses thrown in for good measure, we were both exhausted. That type of tiredness that sticks around even after a full nights sleep.<\/p>\n

It\u2019s funny how<\/span> the old tapes com rushing back whenever we clash over housework. If he even mentions that something is messy, I feel instantly insecure and angry at myself\u00a0for not\u00a0keeping up with it. We both have old phrases and ways of talking about things that trigger the old gender roles and resentment. I get defensive, he gets angry. I get angry, he gets hurt. And instantly I doubt myself, what if I\u2019m wrong and all the old beliefs are true.<\/em> To keep our home calm and strife free, maybe I really am supposed to keep the whole home up and running, rooms clean, laundry kept up, meals planned and on time<\/em>. Then my husband could come home and be free from stress, able to relax and put up his feet after a long hard day of work. Except\u2026 then I remember that those teachings were wrong. When we adhered to the patriarchal roles we fought more than ever, and I was even more tired. <\/a><\/p>\n

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Truth is, we are doing so much better now than we were then. We have had very little practice seeing each other as true equals,<\/a> we\u2019ve only been at this for the last 2 years, and it\u2019s been a lot of trial and error along the way<\/a>. Sometimes I get so frustrated with myself for repeating old patterns, falling back into old beliefs and self-hatred. I get so fed up with the now. Sometimes it feels like this is never going to get easier, like I am going to be fighting guilt over allowing my husband to help around the house for the rest of my life.<\/p>\n

But, I know that isn\u2019t true.<\/span> We have been getting better at this. My husband changes diapers now<\/a>, and he\u2019s learning how to do laundry. I\u2019m getting better at asking for help when I need it, instead of shaming myself into doing it all. I get up with the babies all night long, but then he wakes up with them in the morning at dawn and I sleep an extra hour.\u00a0Our communication skills continue to improve. And sometimes it seems like we need to fight a little just to re-assert our mutual goal of being equals.<\/p>\n

Sometimes at the end of a long day I still find myself apologizing that I am behind on the laundry and I\u2019ve left the baking pans on the counter for almost a week now. And then my husband reminds me that caring for the home is both of our responsibility. We both work during the day, he goes to his office and I care for our 4 children. And then at the end of the day we have family time and we tackle the house together. The housework is both of our responsibility, if I can get some of it done during the day, great! If not, that\u2019s OK too.<\/p>\n

When we eliminated the artificial gender role blueprints from our family, we had to figure out what worked for us for the first time. It was so scary to drop all the ideas about marriage that we understood as mandatory for a good relationship. Even though those ideas weren\u2019t really working for us, what if abandoning them meant our marriage couldn\u2019t last? But we\u2019ve more than lasted, we\u2019ve thrived. It\u2019s\u00a0meant that he has to be accepting on the days he comes home to a disaster, and I have to be OK with him accidentally throwing my bra in the dryer.We work as a team, (an imperfect team, but a team)\u00a0juggling kids and housework together. He is just as capable a parent as I am, and somehow all the housework gets done, even if sometimes we catch up on the weekends. Now we have communication instead of expectation, and that makes all the difference.<\/p>\n<\/body><\/html>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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