{"id":1533,"date":"2016-02-28T16:11:45","date_gmt":"2016-02-28T20:11:45","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/admin.patheos.com\/blogs\/quakerpagan\/?p=1533"},"modified":"2016-02-28T16:12:42","modified_gmt":"2016-02-28T20:12:42","slug":"community-and-the-practice-of-love","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/quakerpagan\/2016\/02\/community-and-the-practice-of-love.html","title":{"rendered":"Community and the Practice of Love"},"content":{"rendered":"<!DOCTYPE html PUBLIC \"-\/\/W3C\/\/DTD HTML 4.0 Transitional\/\/EN\" \"http:\/\/www.w3.org\/TR\/REC-html40\/loose.dtd\">\n<html><head><meta http-equiv=\"content-type\" content=\"text\/html; charset=utf-8\"><meta http-equiv=\"content-type\" content=\"text\/html; charset=utf-8\"><\/head><body><p>I spent most of today\u2019s Quaker meeting in tears.<\/p>\n<p>This is a thing that happens to me sometimes. I\u2019m working on not being too self-conscious about it when that happens, or at least not fighting it. \u00a0I used to say that I wished I wouldn\u2019t cry when I feel spiritually full\u2013or at least, that I could cry more attractively. \u00a0(I\u2019m the sort who gets a blotchy face and a runny nose when I cry.) \u00a0These days, I\u2019m trying to be tougher, and more faithful:<\/p>\n<p>If Spirit wants me to cry, dammit, I\u2019ll cry. \u00a0If Spirit wants me to get a runny nose, I\u2019ll bring a hanky. \u00a0(I specialize in big ones.)<\/p>\n<p>I\u2019m telling you this because I don\u2019t want you to think I\u2019m a gushing sentimentalist\u2026 but maybe I need to toughen up about that, too.<\/p>\n<p>If Spirit wants you to see me as a sappy, ridiculous woman, I\u2019ll be seen as a sappy ridiculous woman. So be it.<\/p>\n<p>Today was a day my waterworks were turned on.<\/p>\n<p>At our meeting, ten minutes into worship is when the little kids leave. \u00a0I watched one of our newest members, August toddle out on those round feet kids seem to have when they first learn to walk, and it made me smile. \u00a0Seeing the careful way his mother held his hand made me feel hugely tender. \u00a0And then, looking up, seeing smiles that must have matched my own on the faces of many of the adults who remained, I was struck by a thought:<\/p>\n<p><em>If I could see the members of my meeting as they look in the eyes of Spirit, they would all look as beautiful as that child.<\/em><\/p>\n<p>And the next thing I knew, I was flooded with light, because looking around the room, I could see just a glimpse of how utterly, dazzlingly beautiful every single person there is, in the heart of their spirit, in the deepest truth of their soul.<\/p>\n<p>Now, I don\u2019t want you to think that the members of my monthly meeting are a bunch of saints. \u00a0Many of them are pretty wonderful, and almost all of them are trying hard to do right in a world that often seems willing only to reward doing wrong. \u00a0But, at the same time, we have members who are self-important, officious, or judgmental. \u00a0We have members who are models of compassionate action in the world\u2026 but also members who throw themselves into peace and justice work as a way of distracting themselves from their own brokenness, whose tongues are sharp, or whose kindness never comes without a self-approving note.<\/p>\n<p>Often, I am one of those members myself. \u00a0In other words, though my experience of Quakers is that we are The People who Try, we are, at the end of the day, just people: flawed. \u00a0Sometimes selfish. \u00a0Often wrong.<\/p>\n<p>I think the point of belonging to a spiritual community is to practice compassion and love surrounded by those you come to know too well to believe are bodhisattvas. After all, how many\u00a0bodhisattvas are we going to have call to interact with in the world? \u00a0What would we learn from a spiritual practice that only taught us how to cope in a community of saints?<\/p>\n<p>So. \u00a0There are no saints in my community. \u00a0But there are people undergoing a host of challenges and demands\u2013illness, grief, recovery from trauma, parenting, adolescence, divorce. \u00a0While I don\u2019t know every burden members of my meeting are carrying, I know many of them. \u00a0And I see them struggling to serve even as they are struggling to cope with whatever their life is dealing them. \u00a0These same people who can seem pigheaded or stubborn or foolish to me as we conduct the business of our meeting together are the people I see doing the honest best they can, one day at a time.<\/p>\n<p>Of course they\u2019re beautiful. \u00a0Of course they make me cry.<\/p>\n<p>But what about outside my meeting? \u00a0If those I worship with seem to me to be filled with light, does that mean those outside my meeting are, too?<\/p>\n<p>Well\u2026 yes. \u00a0Yes it does. \u00a0Each and every one of us.<\/p>\n<figure id=\"attachment_1535\" aria-describedby=\"caption-attachment-1535\" style=\"width: 199px\" class=\"wp-caption alignleft\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"size-medium wp-image-1535\" src=\"https:\/\/wp-media.patheos.com\/blogs\/sites\/441\/2016\/02\/398px-Toddler_hopscotch-199x300.jpg\" alt=\"Ilya Haykinson, 2010\" width=\"199\" height=\"300\"><figcaption id=\"caption-attachment-1535\" class=\"wp-caption-text\"><a href=\"https:\/\/commons.wikimedia.org\/wiki\/File:Toddler_hopscotch.jpg\" class=\" decorated-link\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"nofollow\">Ilya Haykinson, 2010<\/a><\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<p>Even the ones who are hurting one another? \u00a0Those who poison water supplies to save a few pennies, or who rouse crowds to a frenzy of racism and self-righteousness, out of their narcissism or cynicism? \u00a0Surely they are not beautiful in the eyes of Spirit. \u00a0Surely they have nothing in common with the beautiful toddler, taking his first steps out into the world?<\/p>\n<p>They do, though.<\/p>\n<p>If you think that toddlers are nothing but a big ball of cuteness, you\u2019ve never had the care of one for very long. \u00a0To be a parent is not just to love your child when they\u2019re peacefully holding your hand; to love a toddler is to love them even as they have a \u00a0meltdown in the middle of the grocery store or\u00a0take a toy truck and smash another toddler over the head with it.<\/p>\n<p>I\u2019m sure there are those Spirit sees as\u00a0a toddler with a weaponized toy in his hand. \u00a0(Can\u2019t you just see Donald Trump bashing the other kiddies with a toy\u00a0truck, if we let him?)<\/p>\n<p>But all of us are loved. \u00a0All of us have the potential to become whole\u2013more like our best selves and less like our worst. \u00a0And to see that part of each of us, reflected in\u00a0one another\u2019s eyes\u2026<\/p>\n<p>Maybe\u00a0it\u2019s natural for my\u00a0eyes to water, when I look at\u00a0a Light so bright.<\/p>\n<\/body><\/html>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>All of us are loved.  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