Ever since we announced this pregnancy, I\u2019ve received a lot of sympathy over morning sickness, weird cravings, and extreme fatigue.\u00a0 I just try to smile and accept their commiserations, but they don\u2019t know the worst part of being pregnant.\u00a0 I miss my brain.\u00a0 (Pregnancy isn\u2019t all bad.\u00a0 Kicking babies are glorious.\u00a0 The first trimester, however, is my own personal hell.)<\/p>\n
For six glorious weeks, I was on my ADHD medication.\u00a0 I felt and thought like a new woman. For six weeks I never lost my keys or misplaced my purse.\u00a0 I could explain things and tell stories without having to double back and explain things I missed the first time through.\u00a0 I came up with words without having to search my memory for them.\u00a0 I put names with faces effortlessly.\u00a0 I successfully fought off impulse purchases (because impulsiveness is a part of ADHD.) I lived and thought like a normal person.<\/p>\n
Then came the morning where I saw that positive pregnancy result and I had to put the medicine aside for the health and well-being of #7.\u00a0 It\u2019s been 4 weeks and I miss it terribly.<\/p>\n
This morning I lost 20 minutes searching for keys.\u00a0 I got to the grocery store only to realize that my coupon book was at home on the kitchen counter.\u00a0 (Where I put it so that I wouldn\u2019t forget it.)\u00a0 I didn\u2019t get 3 things on my list, but managed to bring home 4 things that weren\u2019t on it.<\/p>\n
For six weeks out of my life, I knew what my plans were for the whole day without having to check the calendar once.\u00a0 I just knew what needed to be done and when.\u00a0 I KNEW IT!!!\u00a0 Today, I\u2019ve looked at the calendar at least 8 times and am terrified that I will forget that my eldest is going to her best friend\u2019s house or that the kids\u2019 Opa is coming over this afternoon.\u00a0 I have to check it because I keep forgetting what\u2019s on it and second guessing the time.\u00a0 I went out with a friend last week and started to tell her a story, when I had to abruptly stop because I couldn\u2019t find the word I needed and wasn\u2019t far enough into the story for her to help me.<\/p>\n
This used to be normal for me.\u00a0 It was so normal that I didn\u2019t even know it was there.\u00a0 My life just worked somehow in a whirl of confusion.\u00a0 Except it never worked all that well.\u00a0 Now it is confusing and overwhelming and I just want my brain back.\u00a0 <\/p>\n
I\u2019m so glad to be having a #7, but the thought of seven more months of this plus a year of nursing before I can think again\u2026..I don\u2019t even want to think about it\u2026luckily for me I\u2019ll be on to something new in a few moments.\u00a0 :0)<\/p>\n
People have been so interested to know what it is to be on ADHD medication.\u00a0 It was clarity\u2026..and now you also know what it\u2019s like to have to give it up.<\/p>\n<\/body><\/html>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Ever since we announced this pregnancy, I\u2019ve received a lot of sympathy over morning sickness, weird cravings, and extreme fatigue.\u00a0 I just try to smile and accept their commiserations, but they don\u2019t know the worst part of being pregnant.\u00a0 I miss my brain.\u00a0 (Pregnancy isn\u2019t all bad.\u00a0 Kicking babies are glorious.\u00a0 The first trimester, however, […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1979,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-651","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"yoast_head":"\n