While in Rome recently, I went to confession at St. John Lateran. It\u2019s the cathedral of Rome, and I\u2019d heard the grace was better there. I got an old Irish priest, soft-spoken, deliberate, patient, and with a habit of sighing frequently as you spoke. [\u2026] I soon realized that I could confess to stealing a dime or murdering an abbess, and he would have sighed in the same way. The sighing may have been a technique, but it worked on me. The absolution came more powerfully because he had sighed, and put me in my place far better than some earnest priests I\u2019ve had, whose very earnestness made me feel important and my sins dramatic.
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\nA friend of mine recently spoke to the theology class at an Evangelical Protestant college. Both Catholic and Protestant friends had told him that the students would grill him about theological issues, particularly justification by faith, and he spent hours preparing himself to answer their questions. They didn\u2019t mention the subject at all: What they wanted to know about was confession, and more the practice and experience than the theology. They really wanted to know what you did and why you did it, and how it felt to tell some man what could be your deepest secrets. They approached my friend as sick people approach someone who\u2019s been cured of the same disease by an established but still alternative and fringe treatment.<\/p>\n
One can guess the reason. Many people who believe they can simply pray to God and be forgiven, whatever they\u2019ve done, long for the chance to tell someone out loud, someone who will then declare God\u2019s forgiveness and give them some penance, some way of expressing their sorrow and growing closer to God at the same time.<\/p>\n
They want what Catholics have. In Rome, I knelt, listening to the priest sighing, in that place where prayer has been valid, with Our Lord in the Sacrament about 30 feet away, and the relics of St. Peter and St. Paul about 70 feet in the other direction. I felt the usual mixture of shame and relief and the sense \u2014 this I\u2019ve only come to see after several years as a Catholic \u2014 that, as my Evangelical friends like to say, I\u2019m really here to do serious business with God.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n
You\u2019ll want to read the whole thing.<\/p>\n
One of the best confessors I\u2019ve ever had was a Chinese priest<\/strong> who had fought for his vocation while in China, and who had a gentle way of looking at things, born of having seen and lived through a great deal that most people never will. I confessed a sin that was weighing heavily on me\u2013a true sin, no over-scrupulous conceit\u2013and he sighed, just like that Irish priest; \u201cwell, that was a stupid thing to do,\u201d he said, and it was like having someone take the burden from my shoulders.<\/p>\nFor all of the well-meaning priests who try to gently let someone off the hook in the confessional, or who\u2013in attempting to demonstrate the mercy of God\u2013are perhaps too quick to say \u201cit\u2019s okay, you\u2019re only human\u201d (true as that is) I have always been so grateful for the simple acknowledgment by a simple priest that I had done something that was, yes, stupid and destructive, but that mercy was mine.<\/p>\n
Sometimes it is not enough to hear \u201cJesus loves you and forgives your sins,\u201d you need to hear, \u201cyeah, girl, you screwed that up, pretty good,\u201d too. If the weight and depth of the sin is never plumbed, how can the uplifting counterbalance of Grace be properly, gratefully, understood?<\/p>\n
Writes Mills: <\/strong><\/p>\n. . . we need to recover the use of the word \u201cconfession,\u201d while quietly dropping \u201cthe sacrament of reconciliation.\u201d We need to hear the blunt word, because, before everything else, we want to say, \u201cI did this and I\u2019m really sorry.\u201d That\u2019s the appeal of confession, the chance to get it all out in the open. To emphasize the result is a bit like renaming the emergency room the \u201chealing center.\u201d It\u2019s true, but not as helpful or as encouraging as you\u2019d think, particularly when you really have an emergency.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n
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