{"id":27885,"date":"2011-05-05T17:43:03","date_gmt":"2011-05-05T17:43:03","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.patheos.com\/community\/theanchoress\/?p=27885"},"modified":"2017-03-07T20:42:05","modified_gmt":"2017-03-07T20:42:05","slug":"bloggers-new-ars-moriendi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.patheos.com\/blogs\/theanchoress\/2011\/05\/05\/bloggers-new-ars-moriendi\/","title":{"rendered":"Bloggers' New Ars Moriendi"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<\/head>

Salon<\/i> reports that Canadian blogger Derek Miller died shortly after blogging his own death.<\/strong><\/a> Miller, first diagnosed with colorectal cancer in 2007, had been using his blog as a platform for his meditations on illness and death, longing and loss. His final post begins:<\/strong><\/a><\/p>\n

Here it is. I\u2019m dead, and this is my last post to my blog. In advance, I asked that once my body finally shut down from the punishments of my cancer, then my family and friends publish this prepared message I wrote\u2014the first part of the process of turning this from an active website to an archive.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

His final message runs about 1,400 words \u2014 short sentences, no rambling, no block quotes. In literary terms, the man was a thoroughbred. The post drew almost 3.000 Facebook likes \u2014 a number which, under any other circumstances, I\u2019d surely envy.<\/p>\n

But what impresses me most about Miller is his detachment. That word might not apply in its religious sense; Miller was an atheist. But the absence of any afterlife seems not to bother him. He writes:<\/p>\n

I haven\u2019t gone to a better place, or a worse one. I haven\u2019t gone anyplace, because Derek doesn\u2019t exist anymore. As soon as my body stopped functioning, and the neurons in my brain ceased firing, I made a remarkable transformation: from a living organism to a corpse, like a flower or a mouse that didn\u2019t make it through a particularly frosty night. The evidence is clear that once I died, it was over.<\/p>\n

So I was unafraid of death\u2014of the moment itself\u2014and of what came afterwards, which was (and is) nothing. As I did all along, I remained somewhat afraid of the process of dying, of increasing weakness and fatigue, of pain, of becoming less and less of myself as I got there. I was lucky that my mental faculties were mostly unaffected over the months and years before the end, and there was no sign of cancer in my brain\u2014as far as I or anyone else knew.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

Though Miller expresses disappointment at \u201cmissing out,\u201d he concludes:<\/p>\n

The world, indeed the whole universe, is a beautiful, astonishing, wondrous place. There is always more to find out. I don\u2019t look back and regret anything, and I hope my family can find a way to do the same.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

As you\u2019ll have noticed, Miller writes of himself in the past tense, as though from beyond the grave. For me, at least, this was confusing in a wonderful way: if words are coming from a man who was, then maybe he still is. I wonder what Miller would make of the contradiction.<\/p>\n

Miller isn\u2019t the only blogger who\u2019s invited the world to his sickbed, or deathbed. Alicia Parlette, a San Francisco journalist, who was diagnosed with cancer at the age of 23, has kept a chronicle of her experiences in Alicia\u2019s Story.<\/i><\/strong><\/a> There must me many others \u2014 more than anyone could name, or I could link to.<\/p>\n

Some advantages to having such easy access to so many real-time personal accounts of sickness, pain and dying are fairly obvious. All the taboos surrounding the body\u2019s inevitable collapse are shattered; the world gets a big, fat \u201cmemento mori,\u201d along with innumerable competing versions of the Ars Moriendi<\/i><\/strong><\/a><\/p>\n

But I suspect there\u2019s another reason to cheer this new connectedness: people suffer and die better in front of an appreciative audience. To cite just one example, there\u2019s my mother\u2019s brother, whose carotid doctors recently unblocked. The operation involved the insertion of a Foley catheter, which remained in place for several days afterward \u2014 a grim experience.<\/p>\n

When he talked to my mother, for whom his jokes have always been hit or miss, he sounded grumpy throughout the conversation.<\/p>\n

I\u2019ve always been a big fan of his. When I called, he opened with, \u201cThey stuck a Foley in a Foley.\u201d Foley is his surname. I fold him, \u201cBravo, sir!\u201d And he brightened up immediately.<\/p>\n

Actually, like Miller\u2019s FB numbers, the Foley-in-a-Foley joke is something I\u2019d normally have envied, or possibly tried to steal. But there are times it\u2019s best to be magnanimous.<\/p>\n

Oh, and since we\u2019ve been talking a lot about St. Therese lately, imagine if she\u2019d blogged, or better, vlogged. She could have converted half of Vietnam in her very own lifetime.<\/p>\n

\u2014 Max Lindenman<\/p>\n<\/body><\/html>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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