In the past year I have realized that though she may have died, she is still watching over our family, still keeping us together, and her devotion to us does not waver.
There are other signs that she is helping us. I was given her rolling pin, which is laughable if you knew what a horrible baker I am. I could cook, but not bake. So why would she want me to have her rolling pin? Out of a desire to feel close to my grandmother, I got the rolling pin out and proceeded to make cookies from scratch. They turned out perfect. I can bake anything now. I mean anything. So I bake things for family and friends and we have that along with the Syrian dishes she used to make that I now prepare in her honor. While I am baking or using her recipes, I feel her close to me. I feel her strengthening the bonds of love in our family.
Some may think this is a delusion I suffer, brought on by grief or fond memories. Wish fulfillment. But I am a polytheist and Hellenian and I know what I know. She is here, she loves us still and watches over and guards our family. She retains a sense of herself and assists our family. She is a divine being. She is a god. And I honor her as such. This may not be high-level theology, but it is this simple worshipper's experience and thoughts on what is a god.
Cara Schulz is a Sales and Marketing Consultant based in Minnesota and blogs for the Pagan Newswire Collective's PAGAN + politics project. Since 1989, she has also been a Radio and TV Broadcaster in the USAF, produced the news for an ABC affiliate, then moved into Advertising Sales and Sales Management. In 2009, she was elected Tamias (Treasurer) for Hellenion. Hellenion is U.S.-based religious organization (501[c][3]) dedicated to the revival and practice of Hellenic polytheism. Cara lives in Austin with her husband, Tracy, and her son, Justin, but the family will soon be moving to the Twin Cities. When not working or involved with Hellenion, Cara enjoys attending Sci-Fi conventions in costume and putting the "camp" in camping at the Sacred Harvest Festival.
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