Why Is Deconstruction So Hard?

Why Is Deconstruction So Hard? August 22, 2019

Over the last 11 years, I’ve been going through the painful process of Deconstruction. And make no mistake: It IS a painful process. Losing faith means losing friends, fellowship and yes, sometimes even family along the way.

This is not easy.

Which is why recent reactions to some of the more high-profile Christians who have questioned their faith or walked away entirely have been painful to watch.

Like this clip where the lead singer for a B-list Christian “Rock” band [Skillet] tries to rationalize why some of these people are doubting their Christianity and fails….miserably. Not only at offering any sort of intelligent response to the phenomenon, but also at behaving like an actual human being with empathy for his fellow man.

His thesis here in this interview is that “Christians need to value truth over feelings” and the first thing he says on this interview is that he had to speak out because he was “so sad and depressed” about these high-profile Christians [Joshua Harris and Marty Sampson] leaving the faith, saying that it was “so saddening and so disheartening” to him.

So….his advice to those people is not to value their feelings over the truth, but then he says he had to speak out about this because of his own feelings?

Okay, then.

Then, his next point is that Christians shouldn’t make these “Christian Celebrities” [and he includes himself in this] their examples.


So…he was saddened by these Christian Celebrities leaving the faith…and that’s why we shouldn’t hold these Christian Celebrities to such high standards? Got it. [Maybe he should take his own advice?]

His point is that “Christians mostly want to be entertained” [and again he points to himself and his own church and his own family as examples of this tendency] and so we “shouldn’t elevate these people” but instead we should listen to people who are “anointed by God to share the Word…and that’s who I want to see us elevate.”


But….how are we to know which Christian Celebrities are truly “anointed by God to share the Word”? How do we know who to “elevate” this way?

I mean, what if we think they’re anointed and we believe they are worthy of being elevated, but they turn out later to doubt their faith and question their beliefs?

Then what?

Apparently if we do that, he says, it’s on us and we need to stop valuing our feelings over the Truth. [Whatever that means].

And this is what really bothers me, I think: the fact that he assumes that people who question their faith and doubt their Christianity only do so because of their feelings, or because they want to be entertained.

What a bunch of crap.

Anyone who has ever had a crisis of faith knows full well that if we were to follow our feelings we’d abandon our doubts in a heartbeat. Because doubting your faith is painful. Questioning the very foundational truths of your belief system is stressful and incredibly uncomfortable.

No one doubts their faith and says, “Wee!! Let’s do that again!”

No, everyone who questions their faith system wishes they could un-see what they’ve seen and un-know what they know.

But that’s impossible. So, they do the very hard work of carefully deconstructing their faith in the darkness, hoping like hell that no one finds out about it.

Because they know they will be shunned for doubting. They know they will be attacked for questioning. They know that they may lose friends, fellowship and family over this process of deconstruction.

And, unfortunately, they are 100 percent right about all of that.

Deconstruction is not easy. It’s not fun. It’s not based on valuing our feelings over the Truth. Quite the opposite! It’s precisely because they value the Truth that they can no longer follow their feelings of faith at the expense of embracing the harsh realities of deconstruction.

In the video, this man also lets us know that he stays grounded in the Word of God [the Bible] “through reading it, by studying it, by my pastors and the people that I listen to”…which again begs the question: “How do you know that those pastors and the people you listen to are telling you the Truth?”

Answer: You don’t.

Finally, he does admit something quite shocking at the very end when he says: “I stay balanced by feeding myself Truth, even when that Truth can be sometimes inconvenient. There are things about God that I’ve had to struggle with…and I realize that if I’m struggling with who God is then it’s not God who needs to change, it’s me who needs to change.

But, once again, what if your perception of who God is what needs to change? What if your beliefs about God are faulty? What if the people you listen to aren’t totally aware of all the Truth you need to know?

What then?

And that is EXACTLY where people like Joshua Harris and Derek Webb and Marty Sampson and so many others have found themselves: Questioning the things they thought were True and realizing that they’re not so sure anymore.

It may be too much to ask, but it would be so great if Christians who doubted their faith and questioned their beliefs were met with compassion and understanding rather than condemnation and shame.

Not only that, it would be even better if everyone would just admit that we don’t have it all figured out and that our faith does have some unanswered questions and there are some serious inconsistencies in our theology.

I think it would be amazing if pastors and Christian leaders had the guts to take those questions seriously and handle those doubts with sincere compassion.

If there was actually room enough for doubt, and space enough for mystery, we might not see such a massive exodus of people who are given only ultimatums like: Conform or be cast out.

But to be honest, I’m actually glad that so many Christians are walking away from this nonsense and questioning things like Penal Substitutionary Atonement Theory, Eternal Torment, Infallible Scriptural Authority, and Church as we know it.

The truth is, we need a new reformation of our faith. We need to ask hard questions. We need to embrace mystery and we need to admit our ignorance.

But it won’t be easy, and it won’t be fun. It will be painful, and it will be hard. But, in the end, I do believe it will be worth it all.

What do you think?

NOTE: If you’re someone who is interested in going from deconstruction to reconstruction, please consider joining me at Square 1.


Keith Giles was formerly a licensed and ordained minister who walked away from organized church 11 years ago, to start a home fellowship that gave away 100% of the offering to the poor in the community. Today, He and his wife live in Meridian, Idaho, awaiting their next adventure.

Keith’s newest book, “Jesus Unveiled: Forsaking Church As We Know It For Ekklesia As God Intended” released on June 9, 2019 on Amazon, and features a Foreword by author Richard Jacobson.
Keith’s Podcast: Heretic Happy Hour Podcast is on iTunes and Podbean. 

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  • soter phile

    you said: The truth is, we need a new reformation of our faith.

    Freudian slip? If this accurately represents deconstruction, ironies abound.

  • Love their music and feelings :), but John is clearly outside of his lane here.

    You obviously can’t answer “I’m not sure about what the Word of God says” with “get back to the Word of God.” 🙂

    You CAN express the Lord through his 2nd body. Only he can draw unto Himself. Post-modern Christianity has to go beyond beliefs.

  • Marion Wiley

    I look at the process of deconstruction as preparing for the new wine. The old system is so incredibly messed up and begging to be replaced with a new wineskin. I guess I’m in a similar mindset having questioned first, how we “do church”, like that’s even vaguely biblical to start with, then the doctrines we were taught (hell, tithe, etc), then questioning the Bible itself. Having found out that the KJV was influenced by the desire of the clergy to retain power over the peons, it just rather leaves you feeling like you’re twisting in the wind. I believe God is removing all these crutches we’ve leaned on all our Christian lives, and we are learning to just walk with Him, listening to His Spirit, not the so-called voices of authority we’ve been subject to in the past. Learning to just have simple, child-like trust in our heavenly Father. It’s all a wilderness experience preparing us for what’s to come- the new wine. At least, that’s my take on it.

  • Many people get to the edge questioning policies, doctrines and explanations like:Eternal Torment, Infallible Scriptural Authority, and Church as we know it.” I believe most people don’t even know what “Penal Substitutionary Atonement Theory” is.
    However,when the edge disappears you have to jump and start looking. What you find may be different from what you thought you believed and some of it may be appealing. But other things will not be. So what to do then?

  • Our Christian leaders claim Christianity has cornered the truth and control it because they want a monopoly on Christian minds, but when their cartel is exposed Christians realize that we are the soul beyond theology and the mind. Jesus is our example of the self beyond the self where we identify with the Divinity within and not our mental identities but the Divinity within which gives rise to many possibilities. The Christ in Christianity is daring us to go beyond the mind, beyond words to the beneficent force of love that connects us to God where everything is fresh and new, not just following rules conditioned by people who have a narrow experience of who God is. Christ aligned himself with the Father and he is a model for us Christians to remove partitions within ourselves that mis-align our minds in a misleading, deceptive mis-alignment.

  • Matt Woodling

    Wouldn’t it be clearer to call what you’re doing “faith deconstruction” or “religious deconstruction”. “Deconstruction” by itself could apply to any ideas or beliefs.

  • Steven Waling

    You keep on walking. Life’s a pilgrimage not a destination.

  • Mike Craig

    I used to be offended by U2’s classic song. I found it incredible that a self-confessing “Christian” could admit he had a searching heart, as if the answers he had just weren’t enough. 10 years ago my life fell apart and I literally thought I was losing my mind. My faith wavered, I questioned the church, my beliefs and my God. Today I long for an intimate relationship with the creator but am afraid to commit. I can’t bear to go through this tremendous loss again, I am still grieving the last one. My prayer is that my heart reignites and I learn to trust the Holy Spirit as He walks me out of this valley.

    I believe in the Kingdom come
    Then all the colors will bleed into one
    Bleed into one
    But yes, I’m still running

    You broke the bonds
    and you loosened chains
    carried the cross of my shame, of my shame
    You know I believe it

    But I still haven’t found
    What I’m looking for
    But I still haven’t found
    What I’m looking for -U2-

  • Jesse H

    How can I help?

  • Jesse H

    Deconstructing a popular Christian bandmembers statements about people losing faith isn’t too hard. I would suggest much deeper and more penetrative sources on faith’s journey. NT Wright, John Lennox, Dallas Willard, Roger Olsen (a writer on Patheos).

  • Mike Craig

    Thank you for responding. I am taking Keith Giles course on reconstruction and also counseling with a professional. My prayer is now to find or start a home church with a few friends who are going through the same. Thank you for asking though, it actually touched my heart that you cared.

  • Jesse H

    I’d love to dialogue more if you wish. I know an internet dialogue is pitiful compared to face to face but please feel free to get in touch with me and we can PM through Facebook or something.