Dan Fincke, around the time of deconversion, quite possibly from October 31, 1999, the day after it decisively completed
Before becoming an atheist I was a devout Evangelical Christian. I am slowly telling the story of my former life as a believer, how I came to deconvert and become an atheist, what it all meant and where I went from there personally and intellectually. Below are links to all the pieces I have written so far. While they all contribute to an overall narrative, each installment is self-contained and can valuably be read on its own without the others. So feel free to read starting anywhere, according to your interest.
Before I Deconverted: Before I Deconverted: My Christian Childhood Before I Deconverted: My Parents Divorced Before I Deconverted: Ministers As Powerful Role Models My Fundamentalist Preacher Brother, His Kids, And Me Before I Deconverted: I Was A Teenage Christian Contrarian Before I Deconverted: Christmas Became A Christian Holiday To Me Before I Deconverted, I Already Believed in Equality Between the Sexes Before I Deconverted, I Had A Bout of Paranoid Right Wing End Times Paranoia Love Virginity Before I Deconverted: My Dad and My God Before I Deconverted: I Was Baptized Before I Deconverted: “My God Died on the Cross, Not at McDonald’s!” My Experiences of Bullying Growing up as a Weakling and a Physical Coward Before I Deconverted: I Worked For A Video Store That Rented Out Pornography Before I Deconverted: I Dabbled with Calvinism in College (Everyone Was Doing It) How Evangelicals Can Be Very Hurtful Without Being Very Hateful Before I Deconverted: My Grandfather’s Contempt Before I Deconverted: I Saw My First “Secular Humanist” On TV How I Deconverted: How I Deconverted, It Started With Humean Skepticism How I Deconverted, I Became A Christian Relativist How I Deconverted: December 8, 1997 How I Deconverted: I Made A Kierkegaardian Leap of Faith How I Deconverted: I Saw An Agnostic Speak At A Christian Conference How I Deconverted: My Closest, and Seemingly “Holiest”, Friend Came Out As Gay How I Deconverted: My Closeted Best Friend Became A Nihilist and Turned Suicidal How I Deconverted: Nietzsche Caused A Gestalt Shift For Me (But Didn’t Inspire “Faith”) As I Deconverted: I Spent A Summer As A Christian Camp Counselor Fighting Back Doubts How I Deconverted: I Ultimately Failed to Find Reality In Abstractions A Postmortem on my Deconversion: Was it that I just didn’t love Jesus enough? When I Deconverted: When I Deconverted: I Was Reading Nietzsche’s “Anti-Christ”, Section 50 When I Deconverted: I Had Been Devout And Was Surrounded By The Devout When I Deconverted: Some People Felt Betrayed When I Deconverted: I Experienced Something Like A Spiritual Break Up When I Deconverted: My Closest Christian Philosopher Friends Remained My Closest Philosophical Brothers When I Deconverted: I Was Not Alone When I Deconverted: Some Anger Built Up When I Deconverted: I Sure Could Have Used The Secular Student Alliance When I Deconverted: I Came Out To My Family After I Deconverted: Liberal Theology and Me, Before and After I Deconverted Since I Decoverted: Sorry Liberal Theologians, But Jesus is Dead to Me After I Deconverted: I Was A Radical Skeptic, Irrationalist, And Nihilist—But Felt Liberated After I Deconverted: I Chose To Study Philosophy At A Jesuit University After I Deconverted: I Was Deeply Ambivalent; What Was I to Make of Sex, Love, Alcohol, Bisexuality, Abortion, 9/11, Religious Violence, Marxism, or the Yankees? After I Deconverted: I Refuse to Let Christians Judge Me After I Deconverted: My Nietzschean Lion Stage of Liberating Indignant Rage After I Deconverted: I Started Blogging Before and After I Deconverted: The Development of My Sexual Imagination How My Personal Sexual Evolution Makes Me Loathe Slut Shaming and Victim Blaming After I Deconverted: I’ve Usually Felt Honored and Understood When Christians See Me As “Still Christian” Since I Deconverted: I’ve Been in Denial About Christian Sincerity Meta: Why I Write About My Deconversion My Deconversion Isn’t Special The Philosophical Key To My Deconversion: Apostasy As A Religious Act (Or “Why A Camel Hammers the Idols of Faith”)