Kido wasn’t trying to become an atheist or find any fault with her faith, but God just sort of left her life:
I remember the exact feeling. I stepped into the church feeling different. It was different than all the other times. I felt alone. Even surrounded by familiar and friendly faces, someone was missing. I was cold and alone. The whole time during the sermon, I didn’t know what to think..I didn’t know how to feel..I even asked myself, “What am I doing here?”Â Even after everyone had already conversed and gone, I stayed behind sitting alone and staring at the enormous ornate cross that stood before me..different now than it had been all the previous sundays and friday nights. Alone, I sat there, praying..rather..trying to. I kept knocking..He wasn’t answering me anymore.
God just stopped listening to her, she writes.
It didn’t help that the church she went to was corrupt and Christians were living up to their negative stereotypes.
So, she’s no longer a Christian. But she’s not an atheist. She still believes in God in some ambiguous way.
I’ve finally come to terms with it. I didn’t shut God out. I shut out Christianity..I shut out religion. People kill themselves over religion. People suffer because of it. I rather just believe..believe in myself and in my own beliefs. I believe that God is still with me..just not in the way that other people think. I have my own interpretations and my own opinions..and from now on..that’s how I’ll live–not as a Christian..not as an atheist or agnostic…but as myself.
I’m perfectly fine with that.
It’s not that important to me that she brand herself a non-theist.
I’m just thrilled that religion no longer has a stronghold on her.
It would be nice if she threw off the shackles of God altogether, but this is still a significant change of mindset for someone.
It’s going to be hard to convince some people that they should get rid of the baby along with the bathwater.
Some atheists won’t stand for that. (I don’t include myself in that bunch.) They want you to ditch all aspects of the supernatural.
I just don’t think that’s realistic and we should consider this kind of story a “victory” for the side of reason.
Where do you stand on the matter?
(Two points go to me for the seamless use of a baby metaphor.)