Ordinarily a father can speak freely with his children about his own faith (or lack thereof) in a fairly unguarded way. But my situation is more complex than that. At the beginning of my fatherhood adventure, I was essentially an evangelical Christian. Now that my girls are entering adolescence, however, I more readily identify with secular humanism and as such I find myself in an awkward situation. The culture in which they live is almost entirely evangelical, and I myself am not. To further complicate matters, for reasons that are personal I have not been able to talk with my girls about my own views for quite a while now. I trust that it won’t be long before I can be more open with them, but in the meantime I will be using this space to write out for their benefit some of the things that I know they will need to hear from me when the time is right. I know they will have many questions, and I can anticipate many of them because I have already heard them from so many other Christian friends and family who have struggled to understand how a man can go from devout faith to fairly comfortable non-belief. They will also have some fears which come from exposure to only one side of this ideological divide, and I would like to address those fears and give my perspective on them as well.
I will put these thoughts here not only because it will help me think through what I would like to say to them, but also because there may be others who will wrestle with how to speak to their loved ones about their skepticism towards religious belief. Just as I have, they too will likely encounter strong and emotional disapproval from some, and they will struggle with how to respond in ways that are constructive. Maybe in these letters some will find a helpful suggestion or two which can help move discussion in a positive direction. I welcome feedback, since this is no small or easy thing for me to work through myself.
In short, this page will feature a collection of letters to my four beautiful daughters for them to read when the time is right. I’ll be posting them here over the next few weeks so check back soon to see what’s been added.
Nothing in this world matters more to me than you, my precious girls. Anyone who knows me well knows that I’d do anything for you girls. You are a delight to me, and I am happiest when I am with you. I’m so proud of the beautiful young women you are becoming, and I look forward to seeing what direction each of your lives takes as you grow up. I also hope you will always feel comfortable and open towards me and know that you can tell me anything, ask me anything, and I’ll listen and do my best to tell you what you need to know….(read more)
I think what concerns me most about you girls learning I no longer believe in God is that I don’t want you to feel uncomfortable around me in any way. I love the closeness of our relationship and I would be heartbroken if anything took that away from us. I am convinced this issue does not have to do that because, while this discovery may be new for you, it is not new for me at all. I haven’t been a “believer” for four years now, and yet it has never gotten in the way before now. Why must it from this point forward?…(read more)
I can imagine that one of the first things you girls may feel upon learning I am no longer a Christian will be some mixture of worry, fear, and anxiety for my soul. I imagine it could disturb some of you a great deal because over the years you have heard people say some pretty dramatic and condemning things about people who do not believe in God. Most of all, you may fear that one day I will be severely punished for my lack of faith. Beyond simply enduring a miserable life, the church tradition in which you are growing up teaches…(read more)
One of the hardest parts about growing up is learning which voices to trust. When you are very small, you frankly don’t understand enough to make important decisions, so those are made for you. You don’t have any responsibilities either, so you don’t haveto know that much. But as you get older and your responsibilities multiply, it becomes important that you learn to make decisions for yourself, and that means learning to recognize which voices you can trust and about which topics each voice is best suited to speak…(read more)
I’m sure you have lots of questions about how I came to disbelieve the very faith in which I helped raise you girls during the first few years of your lives. There’s plenty I could say, but I’m in no rush to have that conversation with you because it would be an awful lot to process all at once. You are in the awkward position of having two parents on opposite sides of a pretty controversial divide…(read more)
Your world so far has been pretty small. The people you see on a regular basis represent only a tiny sample of the world, but as you get older hopefully you will get to know a much wider range of people. There’s so much to learn from getting to know new people because you grow a little with each new friend you make. New friends add to who you are, so I hope you encounter a wide variety of them as you grow into the women you will become…(read more)
As you girls wrestle with the realization that I no longer agree with or accept so many things which I was taught to believe, and which you yourselves are being taught to believe, at some point you may feel a bit like you’ve been cheated out of a more harmonious family situation. It would be so much simpler if, like many of your friends you’re growing up with, your parents both saw eye-to-eye on most things…(read more)