Good numbers and being in control

I went to the doctor yesterday and had some pretty rockin’ vitals.

Blood pressure: 100/70

Heart rate:  44 bpm

I’ve been told by a couple of nurses that those are pretty athletic numbers.  I also benched over 200 lbs for the first time in my life.  200 lbs is 117% of my body weight.  I deadlifted 355 lbs, which is 208% of my body weight.

My waist is one inch smaller than my trainer’s.  We’re both the same height.

The average American male has a body fat percentage between 17-26%.  Mine has all-but-certainly dipped under 12%, which makes mine low and approaching very low.

And yet, I feel like a creationist because I have all this evidence in front of me and some days, like today, I grab at my stomach and just cannot believe I’m not fat.  And I’m lucky: at least I can acknowledge reality even if I can’t convince my brain.  I can find ways to logic my way around the image in the mirror.  I have some insight into the reality break that is anorexia – most anorexics don’t.

Here’s to being healthy and knowing it through reason, even if some days it’s hard to believe.

  • http://cannonballjones.wordpress.com Paul

    Man, that reminds me of the best ego boost I ever got. A few years back, not long after I kicked my ass into getting into shape, I had a bad cycling accident when some asshole van-driver who was eating his lunch while driving decided to run me off the road and into some roadworks. As I lay in the ambulance, shoulder ligaments in tatters and looking like an extra from a war movie, the paramedic took my stats and looked over to his colleague, raising an eyebrow. I saw this, panicked and asked what was wrong.

    “Oh, nothing mate. Just wondered, are you a professional cyclist?”
    “No, why?”
    “Just from your blood pressure and pulse it looks like you’re some kind of athlete”

    Maybe it was the drugs they gave me but it took a while to get the smile off my face. Talk about soothing a self-image problem…

  • http://xeroankh.blogspot.com xero ankh

    that is one scary image you put there. >.<

    congrats. :3

  • http://gburgatheist.blogspot.com/ Stephen B

    JT, awesome job. Can’t wait to get to the point you are at. I am on the other end of the spectrum fighting obesity. I’ve started my “healthy living 2.0″, probably about 596.0, but doesn’t sound as good. Here is a link to my blog about the struggles I have currently with weight control.

    http://gburgatheist.blogspot.com/2011/07/fight-against-obesity-honest-view.html

    Stephen

  • http://tasteofmore.blogspot.com Kay

    The days when you’re mantra becomes “it is my illness, not me. it is my illness, not me…” can sometimes be the toughest. I’ve been having many days like that lately. Feeling the panic rise, the constriction in my chest when I come home and something is out of place, or I read something and get flashbacks. The feeling of being trapped in a cage with no way out, wanting to tear away at everything and lash out and try and run from the overwhelming panic; thinking that if you were somewhere else, you could leave these sensations behind.

    I’m glad you’re fitness is improving, and that you are making solid efforts to manage your triggers. You’re a great person, who is very strong and very well-loved. You can do it. :) *hug*

  • http://eternalbookshelf.wordpress.com Ani Sharmin

    “Here’s to being healthy and knowing it through reason, even if some days it’s hard to believe.”

    Hear, hear. JT, you’ve been working so hard. Don’t give up, and keep applying reason to all things, even when it’s difficult.

  • LadyBlack

    Just popped in via Greta’s website, and wanted to wish you well for your continuing journey. I have eating problems myself, from emotionally over eating, to suddenly finding a diet which killed my hunger pangs, and then discovering that what I actually wanted to do is not eat at all.

    I feel as though I need the mind set that I should only eat what I need to in order to not do damage to myself, but I have so many issues around food that it’s difficult. If I’m faced with something which will put my BG’s up, I’ll not eat it, rather than try and bring them down iva exercise. However, I am currently losing weight heathily, I THINK!

    What I see of many anorexics is that you are all such lovely, gentle people – my viewpoint may be skewed somewhat (I only have experience from the television) – but my heart goes out to you, and I hope you achieve all your goals.


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