Mental illness update

While we’re on the subject of mental health, I’ve had a lot of people asking how I’ve been doing.  Well, here’s an update on my end.

I’m doing well.  My episodes for the last few months have been mild and unworthy of report, quite a difference from what they were even up to the end of 2011.  They’ve also been very infrequent.  This is progress.  Some of it is due to the fact I’ve been in therapy and medicated well.  A fairly large portion of it is due to Michaelyn and Christina who make me feel beautiful every day.

Over the winter I’ve been focused on building muscle, which has meant eating more than I was accustomed to.  It was hard at first, but I got used to it.

Now comes the time to trim down for summer, which means altering my diet again.  You’d think it’d be easier to just drop a small number of calories each week, but it’s not.  Seems my brain is saying “Oh, you need to lose weight?  To hell with food!”  I’m still eating, but it’s a chore.  Still, better than I was a year ago by a long shot.  :)

I almost passed out during my workout this morning.  I threw up a bit and the room got a little more dim.  I suspect I pushed myself so hard because of the change, but it’s hard to tell.  I may have just had a weak moment.  Still, it’s nothing compared to what it used to be.

So, all-in-all, I can’t complain.  Thanks for caring, everyone.  :)

About JT Eberhard

When not defending the planet from inevitable apocalypse at the rotting hands of the undead, JT is a writer and public speaker about atheism, gay rights, and more. He spent two and a half years with the Secular Student Alliance as their first high school organizer. During that time he built the SSA’s high school program and oversaw the development of groups nationwide. JT is also the co-founder of the popular Skepticon conference and served as the events lead organizer during its first three years.

  • Katie Tims

    I’m glad you’re doing better. Remember: St. Patty’s day is coming. EAT COLCANNON. *Om nom nom*

    • Katie Tims


  • Rory

    So, if you’re eating more to try to bulk up, how many Christian babies a week is that?

    Seriously, glad to hear you’re doing well.

  • Moe

    Given some of your comments about Christians, I am seriously starting to wonder if some of your rants are influenced by your mental illness.

    Nothing personal, but there is precedent for it.

    Nietzsche comes to mind.

    • Laura C.

      I thought it had been pretty well determined that Nietzschie’s psychosis/dementia was caused by a hereditary stroke disorder that was completely unrelated to his philosophies?

      That’s the funny thing about mental illnesses: not all of them are the same. From what little I know, anorexia isn’t exactly likely to make people say things they don’t mean or be unnecessarily harsh about the things they do mean. You can’t chalk up every controversial thing someone with a mental illness says to their illness.

      I don’t like motive-guessing, but to me it seems likely that JT’s mental illness only effects his opinions of Christianity to the extent that Christianity and its followers harm the mentally ill by turning them towards unscientific solutions that very plainly don’t work and tend to do more harm than good.

  • alisonmeyer

    Concern troll is concerned.

    I hope you’re seeing a good therapist, too. The right one can keep you straight on what you really need to change and why, and keep you on the right track.

  • cag

    Moe #3 – I do suspect that much. He has been pretty mild in criticizing christians. Perhaps better meds will ramp up the rants. Christianity sure needs severe criticism for inflicting its poison on children before they are able to reason. Your omniabsent, omniimpotent, omniignorant, omnimalevolent, imaginary god needs to be denounced so that humans are no longer made into mental slaves by listening to flunkeys like you. There is no supernatural, only fools like you who willingly allow themselves to remain deluded. Question religion and the answer comes back – it’s a scam.

  • Roving Rockhound, collector of dirt

    I’m really glad to hear that things are going well for you and Christina. And once again you openness about mental illness helps others (and I’m writing this because it keeps me honest to tell other people, even if anonymously)…

    I had become disheartened with therapy, and after my shrink was out sick a month ago I did not reschedule and planned to not go back. Your posts made me realize it was not worth throwing the last eight months of work out the window by attempting to go cold turkey, because this is still a real problem I can’t just hope will go away on its own. Went back today. I did not realize I needed it so badly.

    So once again, thank you. You guys rock.

  • LadyBlack

    Yep, people like JT help me try to get help, even when all the voices say “You’re just not worth it”. I have appointment tonight and I’m just trying to get through the day without collapsing right now.

  • jfxa

    JT I am glad you are doing better. I listened to your talk on mental health and I thought it was very brave and honest. I am glad that you spoke out. I do think the persons comment on Nietzsche was insensitive and wrong headed.

    There is no shame in dealing with things like this. Unfortunately our world often criticizes those who are honest with their struggles. They take as a sign of weakness if we cry or have problems. In reality it is a sign of great strength to admit what you have gone through. I certainly respect you and I am sure you helped a lot of people in your honesty.

    I have dealt with suicidal thoughts several times in my life. I have found help in counseling at times. I also have found help in my relationship with God. (I do not say that to be trite or simplistic, I am just being honest)

    I am glad you have a great boss and good friends to go through this together.