While we’re on the subject of mental health, I’ve had a lot of people asking how I’ve been doing. Well, here’s an update on my end.
I’m doing well. My episodes for the last few months have been mild and unworthy of report, quite a difference from what they were even up to the end of 2011. They’ve also been very infrequent. This is progress. Some of it is due to the fact I’ve been in therapy and medicated well. A fairly large portion of it is due to Michaelyn and Christina who make me feel beautiful every day.
Over the winter I’ve been focused on building muscle, which has meant eating more than I was accustomed to. It was hard at first, but I got used to it.
Now comes the time to trim down for summer, which means altering my diet again. You’d think it’d be easier to just drop a small number of calories each week, but it’s not. Seems my brain is saying “Oh, you need to lose weight? To hell with food!” I’m still eating, but it’s a chore. Still, better than I was a year ago by a long shot.
I almost passed out during my workout this morning. I threw up a bit and the room got a little more dim. I suspect I pushed myself so hard because of the change, but it’s hard to tell. I may have just had a weak moment. Still, it’s nothing compared to what it used to be.
So, all-in-all, I can’t complain. Thanks for caring, everyone.