Well this day sucks

So, when you call a psychiatrist’s office and say that your physician wants you to see a psychiatrist, what they assume is that you mean you are supposed to get counseling.  Conflating the two is apparently a pretty common mistake.  But rather than ask you if that’s what you mean, they just schedule you with a social worker.

So I got to drop a $50 copay to spend an hour with a very nice social worker as we looked up the numbers for actual psychiatrists.  Turns out it will take at least a few months to get an appointment.

Then I come home and hop on my laptop.  Everything’s going fine until a command box pops up.  Looks like jibberish to me, so I close it.  Immediately it’s like my video card vanished.  Graphics went to shit.

So I restarted.  No fix.  It’s like my graphics card isn’t there.  I went into my device manager and it’s not even listed there.

And then I get this box.

No clue what it means.  I see “Nvidia” which is certainly the brand name of my graphics card.

Fuck this day.

Ok, laptop fixed.

I’m gonna just relax the rest o’ the day and take care of myself. See you all tomorrow. :)

About JT Eberhard

When not defending the planet from inevitable apocalypse at the rotting hands of the undead, JT is a writer and public speaker about atheism, gay rights, and more. He spent two and a half years with the Secular Student Alliance as their first high school organizer. During that time he built the SSA’s high school program and oversaw the development of groups nationwide. JT is also the co-founder of the popular Skepticon conference and served as the events lead organizer during its first three years.

  • Reginald Selkirk

    nVidia is indeed the brand name of your GPU; the graphics chip.
    ASUS is also a brand name – for the laptop?
    “ASUS Live Update” – I suspect this means your driver is set to automatically update itself. That would be a bad thing if there was a bug in the new driver version that didn’t recognize your hardware.
    NVIDIA rolls out GeForce 301.42 WHQL drivers
    This is pretty speculative, I don’t do Windows.

    • Reginald Selkirk

      Do you know what specific graphics chip you have? It will be GeForce (some number).
      Which version of Windows?

  • doctorburger

    It’s attempting to run a setup, with extra parameters for logging it looks like. likely driver update. you might see if you can run a windows update, sometimes that picks up drivers.

    Is there any sort of .txt file in that folder tree it writes out, C:WindowsTempnvidialogs

    also, download this and run it.


  • Shelley Mountjoy

    I think it’s actually a pretty common practice to be sent to counseling before seeing a psychiatrist – at least that is how it is done here in VA as well. Although I agree that you should have been informed of this in advance.

    • Dalillama

      Blow that for a game of soldiers. My husband’s been having the exact same problem. He doesn’t need to see a counselor, he needs to see someone who can prescribe the medications that he needs, so when he asks for a psychiatrist and is given a counselor, that is no help at all.

    • http://www.patheos.com/blogs/friendlyatheist/author/kate/ Kate Donovan

      I think what actually happened is JT trying to go to a new psychiatrist–he’s mentioned in his past posts that he has one. You can’t start from scratch with a psychiatrist if you aren’t in some kinds of therapy/treatment, but to switch or try a new psychiatrist doesn’t mean seeing a new psychologist too.

  • Loqi

    It tried to run an automatic driver update and *something* got borked. Exactly what went wrong can be found in a log file in your c:/windows/temp/NVidiaLogs directory, but I doubt it will actually help. No matter what caused the problem, the solution is to manually install a new video driver. Check out nvidia’s site to find the right driver for your video card.

    • Icaarus

      Yes to this, and don’t forget to click the “clean installation” box when you do, so as to make sure the offending bork is ignored.

  • auntbenjy

    Extreme sympathies. Home sick today, with sick toddler, and can’t even Skyrim cos my husbands Steam account has putzed.

    Guess I’ll be watching The Wiggles with the boy… ;)

  • http://faehnri.ch/ faehnrich

    Yeah, they rolled out new WHQL drivers. The card crapping out might be normal. I noticed mine was disabled for a second, probably has to uninstall the card then reinstall for the new drivers.

    I’d give you some hugs man, as you said you could use some, or “bro grabs” if you’d prefer to call them.

  • neatospiderplant

    Hugs. So many hugs. In fact, have all the hugs you need.

    • Reginald Selkirk

      Have some Huggies too. They can’t hurt.

  • http://reasonableconversation.wordpress.com Kaoru Negisa

    Sorry the day wasn’t what you were hoping, but I suspect at least your computer problems will be fixed by somebody here if not elsewhere. If there aren’t any answers that help by the time I’m done with fencing practice, I’ll send one of my best friends over here to see if he might know what’s wrong. Not that I doubt your commenters, but just in case.

  • Cunning Pam

    Well, damn. I’m sorry your day ended up being such a crapfest.

    Hang in there, JT!

  • http://twitter.com/nicoleintrovert Nicole

    Hope you get a wonderful night’s sleep and awake to an awesome tomorrow.

  • Randomfactor

    At least you got a nice walk out of it…that’s always therapeutic.

  • Michaelyn

    Bright side: You get to see me tomorrow!! I have so many real hugs waiting for you!

  • Robert B.

    Be well, and remember, we all know how awesome you are.

  • Graham Hill

    Oh my, the same thing happened to me! ASUS Live Update eating my NVidia video driver. System Restore fixed that pretty quickly.

  • http://lordsetar.wordpress.com Setár, self-appointed Elf-Sheriff of the Pharyngula Star Chamber

    -hugs- if it helps, your posts on dealing with mental illness (that I have managed to sift through my reading backlog to read…-sigh- so many blogs, so little time x.x) are awesome. Reading about how you get through your bad days helps a lot when I’m having one; your writing reminds me that improving emotions look like the IPCC ‘hockey stick’ graph, that is, I have been getting better overall in the past year and a half even if I happen to be in a deep hole at the moment.

    If I ever attend a con that you’re attending, I will gladly — actually, more likely excitedly — return any offered hugs. FSM knows I get too few of them already.

  • http://freethoughtblogs.com/wwjtd JT Eberhard

    All comments about the closed thread, either positive or negative, will be deleted. I am done with that thread.

  • CC

    You’ve got to be kidding me! How irresponsible of the person on the phone! Whenever I’ve asked for a psychiatrist, I’ve never had anyone assume that I wanted a social worker. That sucks big time.

    If you’re not constrained by your insurance company, I say keep looking. You shouldn’t have to wait months and months to get an appointment. Even if you have to drive some distance, that’s better than waiting a long time.

  • http://www.freethoughtblogs.com/wwjtd Christina

    If it makes you feel better, my friend Tisha, who has a very short leg and wears a prosthetic, called the orthotics and prosthetics shop and told them she needed to see a prosthetist.

    After arguing with the office worker on the phone about, “No, I don’t need a shoe lift, I wear a prosthetic. No really. A prosthetic, it’s not an orthotic, trust me.” they scheduled her with an orthotist.

    That’s about the same as scheduling someone with a social worker when they need a psychiatrist.

  • becca

    If you lived in SE Michigan, I’d give you a referral to my shrink – he’s an absolute *genius* with medications.

  • Phledge

    Oh, bother–and I was looking forward to hearing how your visit went with your new psychiatrist. Sorry to hear it, though it sounds like you’re coping well with the setback. And enjoy your visit with Michaelyn!