A lot is running through my head right now.
This whole next week I’ll be a counselor at Camp Quest Ohio. Michaelyn is convinced I’m good with kids, but taking responsibility for even one is quite a lot – perhaps more than I’m comfortable with. Several is a task, and I’m just hoping I’m up for it.
Another thing really pressing on me is the fact that there will be a swimming pool, and the campers will likely want me to swim. That means being in a crowd without a shirt on. I honestly sweat a little bit just thinking about it. I think I’ll be ok though.
Lastly, I’m approaching the one-year anniversary of my suicide attempt. I’ve been perfectly stable for the past ten months with no sign of backsliding. Still, it reminds me of how bad it can get if I don’t stay on top of it. When I get to camp, I will hand my meds over to the camp doctor. That will be a pretty powerful reminder.
Michaelyn and I will be back in a week with pictures.