More update

Between naps and sleep last night, I got eleven hours of sleep.  I’ve napped a couple times today already and feel like I could sleep forever.  :)

I got through my workout today without throwing up and did the whole thing.

I’m not great, but I’m certainly not in the dire shape I was this whole last week.  I’m on the mend.

The main thing that has brought me out of it was speaking with a counselor and controlling my environment.  It’s felt like I’ve put myself in a clean room, where only the good stuff can get in.  Starting next week I’m going to have to leave the clean room, but I’m hoping I will have gotten well enough to do so.  I’m thinking I will have.

Once again, writing about this stuff is difficult, but there’s a utility to it.  Coming out about things that bear a stigma helps normalize it throughout the rest of society.  Having support from all the people who read this site, in such touching amounts, has helped me so much.  I didn’t just have people reassuring me that I am valued in their lives, I had people offering to help cover medical bills.  I even had a few people offer to come pick me up and take care of me.  My gratitude cannot be exaggerated.

Thank you.  All of you.  Thank you so much.  There cannot be a god, because he never would’ve let a hellion like me get so lucky.

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