Thanks everybody for the support. It means quite a bit to me and it helps to hear people say they care. You guys are swell.
I got a nap at work today for an hour and am really starting to feel like I could sleep. This is a good thing.
I’ve withdrawn from speaking at Dragon*Con. I’m really sorry. I know some of you were looking forward to hanging out. But right now I need rest. Derek Colanduno, who runs the Skeptrack, was very understanding and even said we can try again next year.
My plan right now is to go home after work and try to sleep. I’m carrying a pretty hefty sleep debt and I know my personality: I tend to short circuit when I haven’t had enough sleep. If, after sleeping, I’m still feeling trapped, hopeless, and all those things that precipitate really bad problems, you have my word I’ll go check myself into a hospital.
My insurance covers 100% of a hospitalization after a $1500 deductible. Sucks to look at dropping that much money, but I trust those close to me and all of them are telling me to admit myself. Will consider the tip jar if I can get my conscience to shut up about it long enough to make the thing.
In the meantime, leave pictures of courage wolf to cheer me up.
My birthday is this week. Happy birthday me, right?