Got ten hours of sleep last night.  I feel a lot more in control today.  This is undoubtedly due to controlling my environment so I have less to worry about today (probably also why I was able to sleep so much).

The monster is still loose and rummaging around up there, but I’m moving it closer and closer to the corner.

You guys are seriously the best.  I write about my mental illness as a means of saying that it’s a normal part of life for some people.  To those who think depression is always an excuse for not being tough, I want to convey what it’s really like.  It’s like coming out as an atheist: it’s hard to do, but it aim is to change the world positively for the people who come after you.

You guys have made it much, much easier.  All of you willing to put up money if I had to go to the hospital…I have no words.  Thank you.

MENTAL ILLNESS & PERSONAL: Pictures of my brain.
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MENTAL ILLNESS: Today's session.
MENTAL ILLNESS: Time to go be a lab rat.
About JT Eberhard

When not defending the planet from inevitable apocalypse at the rotting hands of the undead, JT is a writer and public speaker about atheism, gay rights, and more. He spent two and a half years with the Secular Student Alliance as their first high school organizer. During that time he built the SSA’s high school program and oversaw the development of groups nationwide. JT is also the co-founder of the popular Skepticon conference and served as the events lead organizer during its first three years.

  • Rory

    I’m glad to hear the good news. Keep taking care of yourself and don’t forget that you have a lot of folks out here who are ready to pull for you, whether that simply means encouragement or support or whether it requires something more.

  • https://twitter.com/nicoleintrovert Nicole

    Remember that the support is mutual. You are supporting your readers with mental illness by writing about it. Thank YOU for that.

    And YAY for sleep!

  • invivoMark

    You’re damn right we’re the best!

    Also, I’m glad to hear you’re winning. I’m not surprised – you’ve got a lot more fight in you than I do – but I am relieved.

  • http://peicurmudgeon.wordpress.com/ peicurmudgeon

    Ah sleep. Our enemy and our friend. In my discussions in group sessions and in my reading, as well as my personal experience sleep is one of the most important indicators or mental health. When we start to slip, sleep, or the lack thereof takes over our lives. We eitehr sleep too much or not enough, and either one provides a negative feedback loop that increases our crashes. If insomnia starts to take over, and my current meds don’t use additional sleep aids. if I start to sleep too much, I ask my girlfriend to drag me out of bed before she heads off to work.

    If I act soon enough with my sleep interventions, I can usually head off a more serious problem. Just something I’ve picked up over the years to help. User experience will vary.

    Anyway, glad to hear you’ve managed to head off a crisis.

  • kagekiri

    Keep on rocking on, JT! And don’t be afraid to get help if you need it.

  • lorimakesquilts

    Anyone who thinks depression is an excuse for not being tough couldn’t be more wrong. The resilience, stamina and strength it takes to live with depression is probably something they’ll never have to cultivate and they should count themselves lucky for it.