What depression feels like.

Michaelyn sent me this.  The artist is ricochet188.

MENTAL ILLNESS: Today's session.
MENTAL ILLNESS: Today's session.
MENTAL ILLNESS: I see affection as a competition.
MENTAL ILLNESS: Time to go be a lab rat.
About JT Eberhard

When not defending the planet from inevitable apocalypse at the rotting hands of the undead, JT is a writer and public speaker about atheism, gay rights, and more. He spent two and a half years with the Secular Student Alliance as their first high school organizer. During that time he built the SSA’s high school program and oversaw the development of groups nationwide. JT is also the co-founder of the popular Skepticon conference and served as the events lead organizer during its first three years.

  • InvincibleIronyMan

    Yup, that pretty much nails it. Awesome picture.

  • Karen

    Been there. The image absolutely captures it.

  • Michael Bollenbach

    Am there right now. (not necessarily after that Alabama win though :) Been a rough few years. Gorgeous image.

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  • Cunning Pam

    That is scary accurate, almost to the point of being triggering.

  • Droopy

    My depression feels a lot less …demonic and utterly terrifying. Maybe it’s because I view myself as the source of it rather than the target of it. Individual experience of psychosis would be so very fascinating if it weren’t so painful. I can’t enjoy my curiosity about it without feeling like a sadist.

  • Jaime Wise

    I understand what you mean. I seriously considered going into psychology at one point. Wonderful picture. Depression isn’t a comfortable issue to discuss, and art sometimes expresses things that a lot of words can’t.

    Wouldn’t it be awesome to have a periodical that paired clinical analysis/explanations of mental illnesses with artistic renderings of them?

  • Scott Warner

    That is so accurate to me, it sent a shiver down my spine.

  • NakedAnthropologist

    All I can say is wow. It’s like looking into a mirror, only prettier.

  • Silent Service

    Yeah, that’s about right.

  • John Horstman

    Interesting; I don’t identify with that picture at all. I feel utterly hopeless about my life and future and near-constantly on the verge of tears when I’m depressed, but similar to Droopy, I don’t experience it as any sort of external threat (at least not a demonic one in any sense, not even a metaphorical sense – I am hyper-sensitive to judgement by others when I’m depressed, which pushes me to avoid other people and sometimes not even leave my bed or the house because I’m terrified of facing the consequences of my failure to handle the daily tasks that are expected of adults in our society). I don’t experience any sort of hallucinations connected to it, either (as JT has noted he does with respect to seeing himself in a mirror); my perception of the state and character of interpersonal relationships gets really screwed up, but not my actual sensory perceptions.

    This should not be interpreted as denying or objecting to anyone else’s experiences – I find it interesting to discuss and identify similarities and differences, especially since the lived experience of mental illness isn’t openly discussed much.