Continuing my Pursuit…

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This has been a rough couple of weeks. I thought I was actually getting better last Friday, but then had another huge disappointment, which put me right back where I started. Then I came up out of that, only to get kicked in the teeth again Monday afternoon. But I rallied a lot faster this time, and was pretty much back on track by evening. I was so tempted to just give up, give up, give up.

But I didn’t.

Don’t get me wrong here. I was about as low as I’ve been in a LONG time. Even worse, perhaps, than I was back in June. This time, I didn’t even have the inclination to blog! (Obviously, that’s a bad sign.)

How is it, then, that I can get completely discouraged by something one day. and a different day, I get some pretty bad news, and I’m okay with it? Well, I’m not sure. But I think it has something to do with my faith, and something to do with just being reminded, “Hey, it’s not all about you!”

No, it really isn’t. It’s not all about me. Sometimes that’s easier to deal with than other times, that’s for sure.

I’m reminded of a Bible verse here:

Just one thing: forgetting what lies behind but straining forward to what lies ahead, I continue my pursuit toward the goal, the prize of God’s upward calling, in Christ Jesus. (Philippians 3:13b-14, NABRE)

I guess what I’m trying to do is forget what does lie behind, because there’s nothing I can do about it now. I’m just going to continue my pursuit going forward.

I’m a fan of Joyce Meyer, who I think is secretly a comedian, but masquerades as a televangelist. She said on her show today (which you can watch all over the world, but here’s the link to her on-line broadcasts: www.joycemeyer.org), “Trust always requires having some unanswered questions in your life.”

I’ve got plenty of unanswered questions, that’s for sure. But I guess I’m just sticking with the trust right now. There’s no point in complaining, either.

Things are definitely looking up.