It’s not something I talk about regularly, but I believe in the devil. I believe in temptation and that there is an enemy that attacks. One of his most effective techniques (especially when I’m depressed) is trying to make me believe that I’m all alone, and that no one cares. It’s patently a lie, and since Jesus said the devil was the father of lies, I guess that shouldn’t be a surprise. It’s times like those when I need comfort.... Read more
Can’t write with it. Can’t write without it. Naturally, I’m talking about the Internet. (I could’ve been talking about computers in general, but I’d rather be specific.) It’s sad, really, that I think I can’t write without the internet, because obviously, I could. I’m just not sure that I can. For millennia, authors have been penning the great works of literature, and even the great works of science, mathematics, medicine, art, and every other branch of knowledge, without access to... Read more
Didn’t that used to be what we said to someone if his or her fly was open? Enquiring minds want to know. That’s it, officially, for the 2013 Blogging from A to Z April Challenge. We now return you to your irregularly scheduled blogging shenanigans. ***** I’m participating in the Blogging from A-to-Z April Challenge! Read about it here. Related articles XYZ (englishclub.com) Examine Your Zipper (urbandictionary.com) 30 Day Blog Challenge (sonyacole.com) Blogging from A to Z April Challenge: 2013... Read more
John Tenniel`s original (1865) illustration for Lewis Carroll`s "Alice in Wonderland". Alice sitting between Gryphon and Mock turtle (Photo credit: Wikipedia) Will you, won’t you, will you, won’t you, will you join the dance? Will you, won’t you, will you, won’t you, won’t you join the dance? — Lewis Carroll, “The Mock Turtle’s Song” from Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland When I’m depressed, I’m more likely to feel that I don’t have any choices in life; I’m stuck here, and it... Read more
I live a “very” kind of life. There’s just not a lot going on that I can say qualifies as “meh.” I’m either very depressed (almost suicidal) or very happy (euphoric). I look either very blechy (I don’t have bad hair days, I have dreadful hair days) or very hott (with two Ts). I either feel very belligerent or very magnanimous. ***** I’m participating in the Blogging from A-to-Z April Challenge! Read about it here. Related articles Ribbons and Roses... Read more
I am naked. So are you. Most of the time, we’re in a desperate struggle to hide our truth from everyone else. Even the ones we love. We cringe and utter silent thought-prayers, hoping no one will notice the flaws that are painfully obvious to us. Fat Awkward Saggy Dumb Ugly Paunchy Greasy Smelly And that doesn’t even scratch the surface. We laugh about our inner flaws, because we’re terrified we’ll be judged. (Or maybe we’re just terrified.) Ha! We... Read more
The Secret Garden (Photo credit: @Doug88888) Things I’m thinking of: Whether I’m more of a help or a hindrance to my daughter in her last two weeks of school Whether getting back on medication will enable me to continue my education What I’m going to do in the next several months What I’d like to plant for flowers and other gardening How long it’s going to take me to weed through my bookshelves and boxes of books and how much... Read more
Plain brownies, 9 May 2010. (Photo credit: Wikipedia) Excitement is often found in the most unexpected places. (Is that what makes it exciting?) I baked brownies today. From a mix. This, gentle reader, is a major accomplishment for me. Yes, if you know me well, you’ll know that at one time I was a professional baker, so using a mix (or admitting it) is akin to being the gastronomical equivalent of Milli Vanilli. But, you know, the depression. Excuse me,... Read more
Just. Hanging. On. Really, that’s what it’s coming down to. I feel like I’m in some kind of weird limbo until I get better. Til I get meds. Til the meds kick in. I’m seeing everything through a lens that is labeled, “I’m too depressed.” Every person, every encounter, every opportunity is weighed against a suffocating tide of, “Too depressed.” Run across a motivational quote. Think, “Clearly, that person has never been depressed.” Listen to a TED talk. Think, “I... Read more
I think this the time when I usually throw in the towel, which is also known as quitting. But I don’t want to. I want to finish this challenge, even if I’m a couple of days behind. It’s really important to me now to be able to finish something. Let’s hope for the best, shall we? ***** I’m participating in the Blogging from A-to-Z April Challenge! Read about it here. Related articles Could I just throw in the towel? (girlimterrupted87.wordpress.com)... Read more
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