As I drifted into what has become my morning conversation with the Divine Mother – a combination of channeling/ download/ and writing, which I am just calling Free Writing for the moment – the words just started pouring through…
“The journey began inward, with the Self, as all good journeys must. Blood of my Blood: Each Guide a reflection of me and my blood – ancestors. Lessons focused on seeing, connecting, and transforming the Self. Self Foundations, healing, abilities, skills, strengths, weaknesses – growth, perspective, and the Knowing.”
Here She speaks of The Morrigan, the Goddess Hel, Kari, the Cailleach and the others that are faces of my ancestors – The Guides/ Deities connected to the places of my ancestors. Through working with Them, growing through Their lessons, gaining understandings and insights from Them about the Soul, energy, nature, cycles, patterns, and so forth. What was needed for internal transformation – shifting the mind, perspective, and seeing the depth of life and its interconnected threads.
This path and work is largely documented in my two books – Goddess, Sacred Words of Transformation and Kari, Norse God of Voice and His Seidkona. It shows the words and lessons for how I built my own Self Foundations. Deconstructing all the conditionings of others, to find my truth. To connect with my ancient soul on a conscious level, bringing forth the Knowing, skills, and abilities within it.
“Santa Muerte was the Journey of the Land – the blood of the land. Not the self but beyond the self – the memory of the land, the people, nature, society, community. “
Here She talks about the shift where The Morrigan, my primary Guide of the Self Journey, exited and Santa Muerte entered. As the others were connected deeply to me by blood – Santa Muerte was more connected by the land I live upon. I have very little and distant Native American blood in me, but the heavy majority came from the lands that surround what once was Doggerland. Although there were personal lessons for me (the Self), it was more about the deeper nature of nature, the land here (of place), the memories it carried, the energy the people have infused it with over time, community – Seen and Unseen, the cycles, patterns, and interconnections of it all.
Moving from the perspective of the land being like the body of the self, the vessel for life. Diving deeper into the perspectives of the cycles and patterns that govern it. How the energy moves and works within the collective – elements and souls of nature, human social structures, and the blended community of the whole. The deeper structures and maps of the energy in order to work with them more cohesively.
I studied the histories and movements of the people in the Americas, both north and south, for they have many interconnections and blendings through their impacts of trade, migration, and people merging. I studied how they saw and worked with the energy of the land and the souls upon it (nature and people). I went deep into their ways of timekeeping, the natural clock in the sky (astrology). Understanding the natural flows of energy. What can and can not be shifted or altered from a world perspective. The Knowing within it. Blending wisdom from the personal journey and this one of the world journey. This became Crane Tradition, documented and explained in the book Grimoire of the Crane.
As we went deeper, as I understood more, Santa Muerte took the name Divine Mother, Lady of the Bones. The blending between all, for She is all, and reflected in all – in me – in this journey. Still the same Her, still the same energy She has always been, just deeper.
First a movement of devotion. Not from the perspective of how people talk, but a full integration, surrender, and becoming with Her. A devotion so deep that it becomes the drive behind everything else, a part of you, blended into you – Unity with Her. The reflection of Her within me and me within Her, above and below. What that really meant, moving within it, and building the bond for it. I thought I felt and understood it fully before, but I didn’t. I did not understand the depths it could go – and I may still learn more later. This work is shown in the book The Divine Mother, Lady of the Bones: A book of Mysteries, Devotions, and Practices.
“At the end of the day He (the Father of Worlds) is a part of Her. Another face and mode (magic) because I need it – I need to see the separation of tools and modes between: humanity and society, devotion and magic, self and land, energy and blood. One day, He too will fade and melt into the being of Her (the Divine Mother).”
It is interesting that She gave me where this will go with the Father of Worlds. She usually doesn’t, because I must experience it for myself through actually walking the journey. She Guides me, shows me what I need right now, teaches me, but never really tells me where we are going/ the outcome. I am not sure why She is laying it out now though – Perhaps I have grown enough to receive it. What I mean by that, is instead of what I know I would have done before: Not invest as much of myself in Him as an individual if He was just going to blend away into Her – or just be like “If He will end as Her anyway, let’s just skip the separation.”
To my surprise I didn’t think either of those things when She said this. I just accepted it and loved it. There are lessons, new ways of working and He needs to be the face of that. Since community, land, and society/ humanity are the focuses of my work right now and that requires a lot of the masculine energy when it comes to structures. It seems, men in general right now, also need to see a place that they fit, their role, when it comes to family/ community/ society. Because we call Her Mother, Lady, Feminine – people break it down into gender or biology because that is how people can conceive it. She is both and none. She holds both sides within Her as we hold both within us. Because this understanding has become a deep part of my perspective, through my devotional journey, there is no surprise to me that this will happen.
“My journey is the way it is because it is what I need to go through to really see and understand. There are no short-cuts – even though I know the ending of Him it does not change the work of now.”
Every person has their own journey to take. We may overlap. We may have similar points or Guides, but our experience of Them and through them is personal to us, where we have been, what we need, how we grow. The general blueprint of it is the same, but what it actually looks land how we build from it depends on us.
This is why all of my work is structured the way it is. I am sharing the blueprint I experienced, and what that actually looked like for me walking through them. When I teach, it is tools and frameworks that have been shown to be extremely effective for me and many others I have mentored, and that gives real, tangible results. I share my raw experience, when it is clear and I have a solid understanding, but also the times when it is messy and confusing. Some think I shouldn’t, that I should only share the completed and polished work, but its not authentic. To not show the messy parts we give the wrong impression of what it actually took and looked like to get there.
Sharing – My Real Job
My Divine has given me all of this growth, has transformed me and my life through the journey and lessons. She has given me all these tools, frameworks, and experiences. My one job in return for all of this is to share my own experiences, what I learned, what worked for me – my journey.
My journey is documented in these articles, in my books, in videos, my personal blog, and so forth. It is not perfect and polished because growth is not perfect and polished. I share from the heart and my authentic self. I share from where I have been but also from where I am right now.
What people do with it, how they move with it, what they create from it is up to them. My journey, tools and ways, can be inspiration, starting places, ideas, perspectives, but your path is yours and has to be forged to for your own transformations, growth, and where you are going.
We grow through sharing. We touch each other through sharing. Our world grows because when we share our own, as we add to the larger conversation and perspectives of what could be.
Don’t wait for it to be polished, completed, “perfect” because tomorrow you will learn something that will expand your today’s “perfect.” Just share your authentic self as you are right now, your real journey, your perspectives. There will be people interested in following along – I would be interested in following along.
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