Did You Parent from Your Own Past Pain?

Let’s be honest. Most of us didn’t enter motherhood with a blank slate.

We entered with wounds. Some healed. Some hidden. Some still bleeding.

Maybe your own mother was distant, critical, or absent. Maybe your childhood was marked by instability or chaos. Maybe you told yourself, “I’ll do things differently.” And you did—until life got hard, stress took over, or you ran out of emotional energy.

And suddenly, you found yourself parenting not just your children… but your own inner child too.

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We don’t always realize we’re parenting through pain until we’re on the other side of it

Maybe you overcompensated. Maybe you were overprotective, emotionally unavailable, reactive, or afraid to say no. Maybe you poured yourself out trying to give your kids what you never had—only to feel like you came up short.

And now?
Your kids are grown. They’re telling their stories. And you hear things in their voices—disappointment, distance, even hurt—and you wonder:

Did I fail them?

But here’s the truth:

You were doing the best you could with the tools you had at the time. And God saw you.
He sees you now, too—and He is not asking you to live in shame.

In Isaiah 43:18-19, God says,

“Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing!”

That includes the way you see your parenting.

Yes, acknowledge what didn’t go right. Take responsibility for where pain flowed from pain. But don’t get stuck there. Your past does not disqualify you from peace, redemption, or meaningful connection today.

What Forgiveness Looks Like

• Forgiveness is not denial. It’s truth with compassion.

• Forgiveness is not pretending. It’s naming the hard things and refusing to be defined by them.

• Forgiveness is not just for others. It’s for you, too.

If you need to go back to your grown child and say, “I didn’t always get it right. I was carrying things I hadn’t healed from,” — do it.

If they’re not ready to receive it, release them in love—and forgive yourself anyway.

Jesus came not just to redeem our souls, but to free us from the weight of guilt and shame.

You are not the perfect mom.
But you were the right mom.
And with grace, there is still time to love well and live whole.