One day I placed a chair in the middle of my study and sat down….whether we recognize it or not we all need a quiet place one on one with God. I felt like a nomad thirsty and dying with no visible water in sight. I didn’t know precisely how I would quench my spiritual thirst, but I knew what I was looking for I was seeking the presence and love of God in the center of my heart.
My heart hungered for His love and to be consciously aware of His presence moment by moment in my life. I knew the answer would not be found by reading and studying more scripture about Him; my one desire was to experience His spirit and being in my heart.
The chair in the middle of the room represented a genesis moment where I had to stop sit down and quit running from getting quiet long enough to listen for what God might say to me. I remember James Robison, a protégé of Billy Graham after preaching to millions of people in crusades as a young man came to a crossroads in his life where he recognized he was spiritually drained and empty. When he got desperate enough to slow down give up and listen he shared that God spoke to him in his spirit and said, “I’ve seen your ministry over the past several years how would you like see mine?” He stepped away from conducting the crusades and spent the last half of his life overseeing an international organization for impoverished children and people around the globe as the spirit of Christ energized his life.
The hidden secret today in Christian ministry and nationally known circles ministry is chiefly ego-driven, and few leaders have inner peace and a deepening spiritual relationship with Christ. Likewise, after nearly thirty years of ministry, I also came to a turning point in which I lost my first love for God, and I was dying on the inside too. I am thankful for the awareness I needed a dramatic change in my journey with God and dared to seek an inner transformation of my heart and life. (Silence is one of the purest forms of Worship and Prayer)
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