It has been a while since I posted, and I suspect some of you think that I had abandoned the blog. This is true, but not in the way you think. Something went awry back in March, and I have in fact been hiding from Vox Nova since then.
As you will recall, I was attempting to blog weekly, posting a homily on the Sunday readings. It was touch and go for while as I was falling behind, and then we came to the second Sunday in Lent. The Gospel reading was the Transfiguration and I was, frankly, stumped. And the harder I thought about it, the less that came to me. Indeed, in the end, paraphrasing Peter, I realized that I did not know what to say. About anything. I froze up solid. I could not write a sermon about the Transfiguration, and the next week and the week after I remained frozen. I had some ideas about the parable of the Prodigal Son: in light of the reaction to Pope Francis in many circles, I began to think that there was another, unmentioned brother whose reaction needed to be examined. But I couldn’t get a word out.
Lent became Eastertide became Ordinary time, and even though I kept having ideas, I couldn’t write them down. Indeed, when I couldn’t sleep I lay in bed and sketched out some fairly detailed outlines. But when morning came they dissipated and the will to write them down got lost, or pushed aside, or something. I felt so guilty that I started avoiding the blog entirely. (I also started shirking some of my administrative duties, but I am getting a handle on those and am issuing some direct apologies—if you think I have overlooked or ignored you, send an email to Vox Nova and I will try to respond in a more timely fashion.)
But I am back. Sitting here writing this is very hard, but I feel like I have to do this: I cannot write, but I do not want to quit the blog, either. Like the title of the Harlan Ellison story, I have no mouth, yet I must scream (link to PDF–I am not sure the story is really relevant, but the title resonates with me).
If any of these interest you, say something in the comments—that might tip me over the edge and give me the push to actually write. Or suggest something else you want to hear about. In any event, be assured of my prayers, and I ask yours as the summer ends and the new school year starts. Vox Nova is a great blog, and you have all been wonderful readers and interlocutors.