Back in April, you would have seen me and thought that I was incredibly motivated. I had just gotten my equipment so that I could make talking videos on YouTube, and the American Atheists Convention made me even more excited; that was when I met some awesome people in the community (including JT Eberhard). After posting my first few videos, I got burnt out.
One of the reasons for that was because I wanted to have an opinion that was at least semi-unique. I don’t want to have videos in which I say the same things that everybody is already saying.
Sadly, that is why I quit doing artwork on paper. One day I finished an art piece and a teacher said that it reminded them of somebody else’s artwork. That person was correct, it did have many similarities. My artwork style wasn’t original enough, and I didn’t want to change my style and then have to worry about making sure that I was doing something unique. Nothing is purely unique, I know, but I didn’t feel like I could obtain that at all on paper. Luckily, I was already doing makeup artwork, and I still feel like it is unique enough to enjoy it and continue doing it.
For my videos, I want to make sure that I am doing something that I feel is unique enough so I can continue making them and enjoying the process as well. I knew that I could have made videos that were somewhat original back then, but I was discouraged and I started to go into a low time in my life again; before I got the necessary equipment, I was in a bad place, but it got even worse after I stopped making videos. I just recently started to climb my way back up, and I made a video to talk about what has been going on with me.