Waiting in the Dark

For what am I waiting this first day of Advent? for what do I long? If I am honest, there is almost always something a little “adventish” in my spirit,” a little place where I am all too aware that not everything is as it should be, that somethings are still amiss, that something remains to be completed.

I will let myself know some of my longings of Spirit this week:

  • I long for the long lists of hurts and slights that I carry, that all those I know carry, to dissolve into nothingness.
  • I long for an end to the fear of not having enough that creates greed, selfishness, stinginess and hardness of heart.
  • I long for clearer vision by which I can see the Holy in all things, in all places, in all people.
  • I long for generosity of heart, mind and spirit that opens wallets, larders and storage bins.
  • I long for a peace that passes understanding to invade the systems that I inhabit–the politics, the churches, the schools, the neighborhoods, the families; is it true that it needs to begin with me? if so, how?
  • I long for people of faith to do justice, love mercy and to walk humbly, filled with a sane estimate of their own abilities, with the Holy and with each other.
  • I long for a sea change in the attitudes of the powerful toward the less powerful–more open-heartdness, more compassion, more empathy, more investment in wholeness, all over the world.
  • I long for the clutter of consumer life to be swept away, so that we can see God more clearly, love God more dearly, follow God more nearly, day by day.

O that you would tear open the heavens and come down! (Is. 64:1)  This is my prayer in the dark this first Monday of Advent.




About Elizabeth Nordquist

Elizabeth Nordquist is a Presbyterian pastor, teacher, and spiritual director who pens beautiful reflections on women's issues, spirituality and Scripture. Each day she looks for ways in which the Spirit is moving in and around her.

  • Susie


    Thanks for sharing this lovely reflection. I serve two very small UCC churches and can see how it would be wonderful for the church family to reflect on your thoughts. Would it be okay with you if I figure out some simple way of using these liturgically?

  • http://wordshalfheard.blogspot.com Carol Kuniholm

    You’ve captured a great deal in a few words. I’m going to use your longings as prayer prompts through the advent weeks ahead.

  • http://sdtyghdsrts.com Jen Battersby

    85% of the world wouldn’t know one from another. Sad, isn’t it.