I Hate Summer

I Hate Summer July 19, 2018

For the past several days—until today, alas—we’ve been having a spell of entirely uncharacteristic weather in the Washington, D.C. area. The days have been in the 70s and the nights, pure bliss: in the high 60s, a temperature for open windows and a thick breeze that feels like it’s straight from the Atlantic, and I am opening the casement windows in my cottage on Martha’s Vineyard.

Which, I should note, does not exist.

Now we’re back to Hell Season again. I think we had a high of 97. And it’s as good a time as any to remind everyone:

I hate summer. I hate it as a reality and as a concept, too. Here’s my analysis:

On the one hand: Wistful overworked professionals appealing to, yes, France, and its month-long vacations.

Summer surprised us, coming over the Starnbergersee
With a shower of rain, we stopped in the colonnade
And went on in sunlight, into the Hofgarten
And drank coffee, and talked for an hour…

On the other: Angry overworked professionals carping about not being able to get anyone in New York or on Capitol Hill on the phone.

Texans, meanwhile, are happy to remind us that summer is not over down there until the start of November.

As far as I am concerned, be gone with it all. Shut yer trap. I implore with the zeal of an unexpected convert.

I felt this way all along. Much of it, I think, is a reaction to growing up in the South, after the twin triumphs of television and air conditioning, with sad older parents who wanted to just sit for a while. We had a front porch, but for the most part, front porch culture was gone. Our street had no sidewalks.

My memories of summer days are of scurrying from one window-unit-cooled room down a hot humid hall to another one—close the door, the air will get out—the curtains and shades kept as assiduously closed as the ones in Rosa Coldfield’s (of Faulkner’s Absalom, Absalom!) parlor.

Even today, if you want to short-circuit my whole day, put me in a air conditioned room that smells of cigarette smoke, coffee, fried eggs and bacon, sun blaring outside plate glass windows, and it will take me hours to bat back the sense of hopelessness.

I have been a Christian long enough now to know that those very times of bleakness are the moments that can yield the greatest prayer, the closest growth to God.

It’s just that summer is so damn long. It’s like the Demon of Noontide, but for three solid months.

Summer perception: Watermelon and feta salad on the terrace, badminton at dusk with the sound of chirping crickets.

Summer reality: Barbecue chicken, baked beans (from the can) and slaw (from the store). The ooze of sweat from underneath slathered-on sunscreen. A parched throat from overly-oaked, cheap chardonnay.

In sixth grade I was in Dallas during a week in which the temperature sat steadily at 106 degrees, and the sun bent in a low hard angle over what Richard Ford called its “gloom prairies.” What saved me was going to the ice rink at the Prestonwood Mall, and swimming in my aunt’s pool after the sun had set.

Come to think of it, nighttime has always been summer’s saving grace. It was the one time that my parents would migrate to the vestigial front porch with their bowls of Seale-Lilly ice cream, the air redolent with the smell of poison from the mosquito fog truck, the emerald eye of the clearance light from local crop-duster airport flashing about the sky.

When I was in college, in New Orleans, I kept a schedule roughly equivalent to Keith Richards’s in 1971—minus the drugs—to the extent that my random work schedule allowed it: The night would get going just about 10 p.m., crazed shadows from the branches undulating over Uptown streets, the unseen whoosh of the streetcar audible for miles down St. Charles Avenue.

Some nights split into an all-night bar routine that was common to students at my university: A.T. II’s led to the Le Bon Temps, which gave way to the F+M Patio Bar, from which folks left to go to Benny’s Blues Bar (long gone now and sorely missed), then finally end up at Ms. Mae’s on Tchoupitoulas sometime around 8 a.m. And as magical as those evenings often were, I nonetheless look at them now largely as exercises in desperation. (Duh.)

Other nights were more circumspect: Rumor had it that there had been seven rapes that summer in the neighborhood where I was living, and around ten or eleven I’d start to get terrified, prowling for hours around the house on Plum Street with its floor-to-ceiling windows, listening to the central air conditioner going on, going off, watching the mysteries of nighttime New Orleans, like lizards, creeping up to the glass.

I think of those nights often now during the hot months as I lie in bed, during the regular lacuna of an hour during which I wake up and can’t easily go back to sleep. In recent nights, I’ve huddled next to the nighttime radio from the BBC World Service, listening to speculation about the new Supreme Court justice, but also the labored and breathless descriptions of the effort to rescue those soccer players in Thailand.

All is dark and thick and still. I am riveted. The players were rescued today, though one of their rescuers died. Perhaps there is something I can rescue from summer after all: a rapt and motionless attention.


A similar version of this post appeared at Good Letters on August 27, 2013.

A native of Yazoo City, Mississippi, Caroline Langston is a convert to the Eastern Orthodox Church. She is a widely published writer and essayist, a winner of the Pushcart Prize, and a commentator for NPR’s All Things Considered.

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