I remember my first day…I was with one of my trainers. I walk in and meet the staff, and I look over in the corner and there’s a little white tray with pie dishes on it. Then I see someone come in with a bottle and there’s blood in it. They went over to the sink and emptied it out in a strainer and put it on the pie dish…My trainer comes over and she takes tweezers and pulls the parts away from the vaginal tissue.
I’ve never had anxiety before. I had no idea what was going on…My trainer has these tweezers and she’s showing me, “This is a head, this is a leg, this is an arm.” She asks me to come over and show her some of the parts she just showed me. I didn’t want to lose this job…
So I took the tweezers…I remember grabbing a leg, and saying , “This is a leg.” And the moment I picked it up, I could feel death and pain like I’ve never felt before, shooting up through my body. I blacked out…and woke up in a recovery room, and the nurses looked at me and said, “You’re new? Don’t worry, it still happens to a bunch of us.” I said, “Really?” They said “Yeah, some of us don’t ever get over it.”
I remember leaving that day and wondering, what did I get myself into?
How much will it take? The Center has said there are 9 videos to go. It chills the soul to think of what we might yet see inside those clinics.
Ross Douthat has it right. Once you see it, you know. You know.