Feeling human again.

Bismillahi Rahmani Rahim

Salaam Alaikum wa Rahmatullah

Alhamdulillah, I survived the day of fasting. I broke my fast with water and some cranberry-nut cookies. Then I had some pasta. Now I’m drinking my decaf coffee and feeling like a human being again. Since I’ve been unable to fast for several years, fasting today was a BIG DEAL. I did fast several days in Ramadan, before I started becoming very dehydrated and my milk supply suffered, but then I was ready for it, mentally prepared, and got up for suhoor every morning. This morning I slept too late. InshAllah I’ll be up early tomorrow.

Now that the baby is older and is not completely dependent on me for nutrition, I plan to make fasting a normal part of our lives, inshAllah. It seems I’m more religiously focused on days that I fast. I think I’ll start the Monday / Thursday fasting. I’ll get my hubby on board, too. My son, who is nine now, is always eager to fast so I’m sure he’ll be participating. He is mashAllah very good with fasting.

I’m trying to do better in all areas, like praying and fasting, eat well and exercising, making time to write and take care of myself. It’s very hard in a house with small children, and with my husband shouldering most of our new business he won’t have as much time, but one way or another I’m going to establish more balance in my life so I don’t go crazy. Alhamdulillah, he is so supportive of me. He doesn’t try to make me feel guilty for still being “Nancy” in addition to being his wife and our kids’ mom.

I’m going to finish my coffee, and then I think I have to clean the bathrooms. I’ve been ignoring them for a few days since I’ve been overwhelmed with sick kids and a still / again sick hubby, may Allah grant him healing, Ameen.