old “from the cell”: oh god!

This is my prayer today as I endeavor to articulate a theory that I believe will help many people. Like I’ve said, I feel an incredible amount of peace and joy because it has resolved a torturous intellectual struggle I’ve endured for decades. After years of study, contemplation, meditation, and experience, when I was just about to give up on this project, clarity came. It is not perfect, but I am going to attempt to make it so. This is my life’s purpose: to serve others and set others free, and I believe that this theory, paradigm, structure… whatever… is going to help me to do just that. I hope it promotes unity on an incredible scale. I know it is going to cause trouble for me since there are many who would like me to think, believe and be a certain way. But I cannot and will not conform to the expectations of others if it means being diverted from what I believe is my vocation. My conscience is clear. In fact, I am overcome with a peaceful joy. But that doesn’t mean I’m innocent. I realize that too. I will be held accountable. But if I set people free, then I’ve done what I feel called to do. And for that I will be truly grateful.