I lost two followers, just today. For a couple of months, I had 16. It’s not a lot, but they were my people. This evening I have 14. Where have they gone? Why have they gone? I try not to take these things personally, but who am I kidding? I say cool things like “I write this blog just for me. If anyone reads it at all..that’s a bonus.” We all know I’m full of it. All bloggers are at... Read more

I had my first appointment last week at my midwife’s office. She was wonderful, as usual, but her new nurse…I think I confused her a bit. She asked all the usual questions about my gynecological history but kept calling my miscarriages abortions and then saying “oh yeah” when I corrected her. (In her defense, she is coming from working at a hospital and clinic where such things must be routine.) Then we had this exchange: her: “How many pregnancies?” me:... Read more

On Valentine’s Day, I sent my husband this picture:and the caption “‘Cause nothin’ says I love you like a little Valentine!“ I thought it was hysterically funny. He thought it was disturbing. He obviously has no sense of humor. (For those of you who don’t know, that is the great man’s skull in a gold box from some church in Italy.) Read more

I had my first appointment with my midwife yesterday. Just writing down dates and listening for a heartbeat and that always breathtaking moment when the ultrasound wand passes over your womb and there on the screen is your little love sleeping soundly, safely nestled in beneath your heart. So much hope, joy and fear embodied by a blur on a screen. Our lump was napping. Snuggled up tightly. My midwife tried everything she could to wake him/her up, but the... Read more

Tiny baby bumpNot yet noticed by strangersSecret companion Read more

Yes, LarryD, we’re fine. Oklahoma City got pretty roughed up by the weather yesterday afternoon, but the tornadoes went on either side of us. It’s a bit early for this kind of excitement around here, but it has become a regular part of my Spring. What amuses me about Okies is that everyone is an amateur meteorologist. Not in the annoying way of thinking they know things they don’t, but they actually get what’s going on around here. I got... Read more

I hate being pregnant. There it is in black and white for the world to read. I hate it. I dread every day. The nausea of the first trimester, the constant fear of ‘what if?’, the weight gain. I loathe it all. Here I am at 12 weeks pregnant, “out of the woods” so to speak. Statistically speaking, if I were going to lose this baby it would have already happened. I am not a statistic. I have lost two... Read more

With all the talk on the news and on the blogs about our impending financial ruin, I have begun stocking up on non-perishables. We have a financial emergency fund, and now we will have a food one as well. I know it seems a little over the top, but what if the Computer Guy were suddenly unemployed? How long would it take for him to find a new job? (It took 6 months to find the one he has.) Having... Read more

Here “You can help build our gallery of faces from people who see a part of President Barack Obama in themselves.” Is it just me, or is this getting to the point of the ridiculous? He’s just a guy. He’s not divine. He’s not omnipotent. After the last two weeks, I’m beginning to wonder if he’s even all that smart. I just don’t get it. (shaking my head in disgust) Read more

I have been watching with interest the moral and ethical debate swirling around the California single mom who had six children and then gave birth to octuplets. At first, I will admit to being shocked at the seeming recklessness of the fertility doctor to implant 8 embryos at the same time. I was surprised that she had carried them as long as she had and that they all seemed to be as healthy as a 31 weeker can be. Then... Read more