My Peace

My Peace June 30, 2015

In the last couple of years my life has been chaos. I blamed God for a lot of it because when you don’t really wanna take a long hard look at yourself, blaming God is the way to go and He is always merciful and takes it. Just like Jesus took it when the soldiers mocked Him and spat on Him. When He stood before Pilot He said “you have no power over me that has not been granted to you from above”, which is still true today. Blaming God, being mad at Christ and closing my ears to the Holy Spirit are all powers given to me by God in the first place with the gift of free will. But it never ceases to amaze me just how far God will go to get our attention so that we snap out of that cycle of anger and resentment against Him. Not because He needs us to not be angry with Him or because He needs anything from us but because He created us for one reason: to love us. To give us everything that we need to be happy.

The problem is that when things start going wrong in any kind of way we tend to blame others and not look at ourselves. We think “when am I ever going to be happy” (usually the “like __________” follows) because that is the trick of the evil one from the beginning, to get us to doubt in the truth that God wants our happiness. The devil lies to us and tells us that God wants us to be slaves and that eating the fruit will make us happy and God doesn’t want that. The fact is that God not only wants our happiness, but created us to BE happy and knows exactly what will make us happy if we would only ignore that serpent and follow the will of the One who created us and the world around us for our happiness. That’s so much easier said than done. And you know why? Because the voice of the serpent sometimes comes out of the mouths of the people around us.

Jesus said that the devil is a liar, accuser and a thief. It makes sense to me because usually accusations are made based off lies and they steal friendships and peace. It has happened to me on more than one occasion in life, even as a Catholic. I’ve been accused of not standing up boldly against the SCOTUS ruling legalizing gay marriage among other things. Well, here’s my thing: I know persecution is coming and it’s coming fast. I am making the choice to be rooted in prayer knowing that the Supreme Court could rule no other way based on the current state of affairs in this country. It is what it is. So I’m going to daily Mass, adoration, getting my degree so that I can do what I feel God is calling me to do even though I HATE school, and I’m staying off social media debates that cause me to lose my peace. I’m cutting out everyone who doesn’t build me up because I have work to do. My children are going to live in a culture that is hostile to them. A culture that is spitting on priests and will soon turn on the rest of us. I need to get them ready and rooted in Christ to face that. Arguing with fools who love the sound of their own typing to prove that they are right is a distraction from that. I’m not going to do it.

Keeping my peace is not about being silent and not standing up for the truth, it is about being able to have the faith that is going to teach and sustain my children and grandchild when they are being asked to deny Christ. There are more important things than being right as a great priest once told me when I was being one of those fools, and I see that now. Peace is more important. Raising missionaries, martyrs and saints is more important and being a witness of Christ to each person that He puts in my life is more important.

I am no longer mad at God, I thank Him for the chaos, it has humbled me and made me realize what a waste of time arguing on social media is. It is a distraction from what God is calling me to do. Being right is the fruit and I’m done reaching for it thinking that being right will make me happy.

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  • Beautiful post Leticia!

    There are a few books that I have read over the years that help me to maintain peace (when I’m able to!) One is called “searching for and Maintaining Peace” by Fr. Jacques Phillipe. He is a very holy priest and an amazing author. Another book that really changed the way I look at things is “Trustful Surrender to Divine Providence” by Father Jean Baptiste Saint-Jure . It really helped me understand God’s passive will….everything that happens to me…God sees it and will draw good from it if I just keep turning to Him. The other book that has a huge influence on my peace is “Unbound” by Neal Lozano. Sometimes you’ve been living with lies for so long that you don’t even recognize them as lies. This book helps you recognize the lies you’ve been living with and get rid of them!

  • You know, I think all of this is going to work to the good—which is generous of me, because it’s already right there in the Bible (Rom. 8:28). Being a faithful Catholic won’t be a default kind of thing. It’s been getting less and less socially acceptable, but the Supreme Court decision is a real turning point. And that is a *good* thing. Persecution really keeps one’s eyes on the prize. Weak Catholics will be driven from the Church and strong Catholics will become martyrs. As Tertullian said, “The blood of the martyrs is the seed of the Church.”

    I’m kind of excited to see how this affects American Catholics. Will we be lukewarm and talk out of both sides of our mouths, depending on who hears us? Or will we be loving to those who spit on us?

  • Becky

    I don’t maintain peace, I just get glimpses of it once in a while. Recently when I was feeling particularly unpeaceful I had a sudden revelation. I have several friends who learned to love Mass pre Vatican II, and have not yet fully embraced the changes. In particular they often complain about taking a break in the middle of Mass to go around saying “Hi” to everybody. My moment of relevation was that the kiss of peace is NOT a greeting, or an intermission. It is a prayer and a blessing. Since then I have tried to be very aware of both offering and receiving the blessing of peace.