I’ve spent the last few days revisiting some old friends in Oklahoma City, the city where I grew up and where, when I moved away, I was a pastor. I haven’t been back in a few years, partially because I had been in a difficult place, personally. The last time I visited, I was pretty bitter about some things that had happened to me, and I wasn’t able to fully accept and embrace where or who I was. So, I mostly avoided the people who once saw me as a friend and a mentor.
But, this time was different. It’s probably not healthy to analyze oneself, but the more people I am around (primarily my wife) the more I am told that I seem to finally be at one with myself, much better able to simply be, to enjoy the moment, to relax, to be open and engaged. This trip was a lot of fun. Lots of great conversations, great coffee and beer, and long-overdue hugs. I wasn’t worried if my current state (which, if we’re honest, is constantly changing anyway) means that I need to be honest about my atheism.
If you listen to many religious vs. non-religious debates (which I usually don’t recommend), you will tend to hear both sides making some seemingly objective claims about what religion is, or what atheism is, or what those things necessarily imply. Usually when I’m listening to these debates, I quickly get the sense that these people must not live in the same world that I do. The complex, difficult world of many different kinds of people, with different ideas, hopes, dreams, beliefs, opinions, backgrounds, and so on. The more people that I actually spend time with, the more complex each person becomes. And the more I want to try to really understand where they’re coming from.
Despite our seemingly unlimited access to information, I think we are suffering from a severe lack of understanding. But, maybe our connectedness has actually created a situation where we don’t even want to understand each other, because that would require actual face-to-face interaction. That would require us to step outside of our comfortable “communities,” to unload our guns and welcome the other, whoever he or she or it may be. Recently I helped to start an emergent cohort in Raleigh, NC, and I’m pretty excited to continue to try to figure out how we can create spaces where these conversations can take place.
So, I thought for my first contribution to this series, I would just try to elaborate on what I mean by atheism. Not what a religion or philosophy book says it means. Or not what the loudest voices in the media think it means. But, what I mean. That’s really all I know – and, this will continue to change. In the most simple terms, I use the word atheism as shorthand, in the “survey” sense. When the majority of people describe a deity, I do not personally believe (and therefore do not live my life as if) those descriptions of a deity are descriptions of what is really the case. So, in the broadest terms, my atheism is a lack of belief in the most commonly held descriptions of God.
Part of my purpose in laying this out is to, hopefully, show people that despite if someone uses a word that may have a certain stigma, we should take the time to listen to them anyway. Many people may be completely confused why Emergent Village would have any interest in what we think. But, I’ve continued to find that I have much more in common with people with whom I may disagree about some things, than if I would’ve created some uninformed caricature of them to react against. We atheists haven’t done a very good job at presenting ourselves to others in a positive light, but I also think there is a lot of misunderstanding coming from the other sides about who we really are.
I have a lot of hope that we can work together to create a better world by seeking to truly understand each other. But, it will take each of us exorcising our own demons in order to even have the desire to be around people with whom we disagree. I want to be a part of these conversations, and do whatever I can to encourage openness and honesty. I pray that SKEPTIMERGENT can be one space, among many, for this to happen.