This is an excellent view of how we often see ourselves and how the enemy would have us view ourselves. For years in my early life, teens to mid-twenties, this is actually was how I felt quite often. I believe rejected or the feeling He was rejecting me was what I was constantly plagued with. What He was actually doing was trying to steer me.
Important note: Learn to know and be aware if in influencial circles who’s steering, God or men.
With spending time with God and testing the things revealed comes something I think we all wish to sense and know in our hearts, “Blessed Assurance”. It’s a tremendously wonderful feeling to sense within that God is pleased when we act/do/say what is right and proper and just. It is truly divine to be at the opposite end of that spectrum and finally get it through our head that God is there when you could do/say/act very contrary to Him. This is a truth seven billion need to be aware of.
God’s spirit may be within us but will not always be striving with us. When we take wrong turns, may erroneous choices, “heap coals on our own heads” we will often sense a feeling that God has left us or “blocked” us, He hasn’t. He is still there as much or more than before but that feeling within is to make for a moment of stoping, reflecting, recognition of error, and correction. There is in this process to be no self-condemnation, none. Once we’ve made things right a simple and heart felt “Thanks Lord” and then moving on is all thats prescribed.