You struggle with your unbelief. You ask for help. It gets worse.
I tweeted last night:
The bible says Satan believes. A lot of good that does him.
“Just remove one overused clichéd word from your vocabulary, like the word “believe”, and see how it helps shape a new way of thinking.”
Actually, I believe losing belief can be an unbelievably good thing. In fact, I moderate an online community where we learn how to deconstruct our beliefs in healthy ways.